My life is crumbling down as of late

[dreamofdante]

My best friend is facing fraud charges and I think he's going to kill himself but he doesn't live in my country and there's nothing I can do to help him, I don't think my life is going anywhere, I'm too ugly to get a girlfriend, most of my friends are gone and don't talk to me anymore, I still can't drive...I feel like I'm going to break under this soon. I really wish I had someone to talk to because I don't think I can take life for much longer. It's tough anymore. I've tried to push through for so long but I don't know what to do.

[xXoblivionXx]

Hey it's been a while since we have talked. Please keep trying, you can't just give up, I know it sounds tempting, to just be done with the world but you don't get to choose when you time is up. You just keep fighting and trying and wait until you find away to make things better for yourself. It's hard but it's possible. Stay strong and don't give up

[dreamofdante]

Hey it's been a while since we have talked. Please keep trying, you can't just give up, I know it sounds tempting, to just be done with the world but you don't get to choose when you time is up. You just keep fighting and trying and wait until you find away to make things better for yourself. It's hard but it's possible. Stay strong and don't give up

He's one of the only friends I got and if he dies I'll lose it. I'm already barely pushing along as it is.

[xXoblivionXx]

Well I'm not sure what he did and what the law states :/ I don't think there is much you can do besides pray for him... Just please don't kill yourself

[dreamofdante]

Well I'm not sure what he did and what the law states :/ I don't think there is much you can do besides pray for him... Just please don't kill yourself

He made a mistake. Insurance was paying for something he wasn't doing but he didn't know so now he has to pay the damages. Fraud will always be on his record and he said he'll never get a good job so he might as well do it. And I mean look at me, I'm too ugly to even kiss a girl and I've never worked a day in my life. I'm not exactly looking at a good future either.

[xXoblivionXx]

Please please don't do this :( you can find a job you can find a girl who like you for who you are. You can't do those things if iu are dead you have to have hope

[dreamofdante]

Please please don't do this :( you can find a job you can find a girl who like you for who you are. You can't do those things if iu are dead you have to have hope

I look around and see these kids who are like 14 and have jobs but man they've already explored the sexual realm and came back in time for tea. I haven't even kissed anyone. Everyone always thought I was ugly so now I'm totally with them. I am and no one wants me. I've tried for so long and now I'm tired of it. And job wise, I don't even know what to do anymore. I wanted to go to college to become an RN so we'll see.

[CosmicNoodle]

I agree with Ysmeen, don't give up, I know its tempting, I've been there. But you may as well keep going no matter how shit things seem because you never know whats round the next corner. Like seriously no idea, my life went from trying to step in fromnt of a truck, to having a GF, new best friend, a motorcycle and a hole new perspective on life, all that changed in the space of a month.
So why give up?

Do you think it would be a good ide to perhaps talk to your doctor about the thoughts youve been having?

[xXoblivionXx]

Don't listen to those stupid kids. You are not ugly, what is considered beautiful and handsome now a days? The media imposes setts in standards and I hate it. When you meet the one try won't care what size you are or what color hair you have they care about your personality. People just want to find someone who loves them for who they are and care about them. You will find that one day, I promise. As for a job? An RN sounds like a great career my brother is studying to become a nurse practitioner

[dreamofdante]

I agree with Ysmeen, don't give up, I know its tempting, I've been there. But you may as well keep going no matter how shit things seem because you never know whats round the next corner. Like seriously no idea, my life went from trying to step in fromnt of a truck, to having a GF, new best friend, a motorcycle and a hole new perspective on life, all that changed in the space of a month.
So why give up?

Do you think it would be a good ide to perhaps talk to your doctor about the thoughts youve been having?

My life's been consistently bad for 12 years and has shown no signs of improving. The best that can happen for me is I become an RN and have a good paying job. But then I'll be alone and still have no friends in my life. Honestly I don't want to talk to a doctor. It will go on permanent record and I don't want to be told I have a mental illness. I guess being miserably depressed about my situation is a mental illness, doc.

[dreamofdante]

Don't listen to those stupid kids. You are not ugly, what is considered beautiful and handsome now a days? The media imposes setts in standards and I hate it. When you meet the one try won't care what size you are or what color hair you have they care about your personality. People just want to find someone who loves them for who they are and care about them. You will find that one day, I promise. As for a job? An RN sounds like a great career my brother is studying to become a nurse practitioner

Damned if I know what's beautiful anymore. I guess it's a good job if I can manage to make it through the courses.

[CosmicNoodle]

My life's been consistently bad for 12 years and has shown no signs of improving. The best that can happen for me is I become an RN and have a good paying job. But then I'll be alone and still have no friends in my life. Honestly I don't want to talk to a doctor. It will go on permanent record and I don't want to be told I have a mental illness. I guess being miserably depressed about my situation is a mental illness, doc.

Being diagnosed with a mental illness was one of the best thing that happened to me, well, ever, turned my life around. My life was shit from the age of 7 to the age of 16, know just how you feel about it all, ut like I shown in my story erilier ^, life can quickly go from bullshit to good in a short time. Just keep trudging OK, getting into college and getting a job will help you meet new people, get to new enviroments. It will change your life, likely for the better

[dreamofdante]

Being diagnosed with a mental illness was one of the best thing that happened to me, well, ever, turned my life around. My life was shit from the age of 7 to the age of 16, know just how you feel about it all, ut like I shown in my story erilier ^, life can quickly go from bullshit to good in a short time. Just keep trudging OK, getting into college and getting a job will help you meet new people, get to new enviroments. It will change your life, likely for the better

No trust me being diagnosed for me would be all, end all. The people I know would not want anything to do with me. They barely do now and if that's the case I'm not sure what I can do with myself. Honestly, knowing what my friends have done just upping and leaving I'll be afraid to trust people again.

[xXoblivionXx]

Usually you can keep that private, no one really has to know, iu will et help
And meds if wanted. They do help. I really hate how if you break a bone people run over to sign your cast but if you have a mental disorder, if something is wrong with your brain, it's frowned upon :/ it's messed up.

[dreamofdante]

Usually you can keep that private, no one really has to know, iu will et help
And meds if wanted. They do help. I really hate how if you break a bone people run over to sign your cast but if you have a mental disorder, if something is wrong with your brain, it's frowned upon :/ it's messed up.

I try to keep it together because odds are the damn college I want to attend won't let me in because they'll do a background check and find I have a mental illness. If I had a little love and support in my life I'd probably flourish but I have neither.

[CosmicNoodle]

No trust me being diagnosed for me would be all, end all. The people I know would not want anything to do with me. They barely do now and if that's the case I'm not sure what I can do with myself. Honestly, knowing what my friends have done just upping and leaving I'll be afraid to trust people again.

You honestly sound like your having a rough time, just trust me, things do actually get better, I know thats shit generic advice, pah! "Things get better", so generic and over used, but its true, they do.

[dreamofdante]

You honestly sound like your having a rough time, just trust me, things do actually get better, I know thats shit generic advice, pah! "Things get better", so generic and over used, but its true, they do.

I'm already breaking so if you're right, I hope it's soon...Real soon...Having no one in my life is damaging me badly.

[CosmicNoodle]

I'm already breaking so if you're right, I hope it's soon...Real soon...Having no one in my life is damaging me badly.

KNow just what you mean, I was alone for years as well, its horrible isnt it, there isnt much else I can say apart from keep trying, and that I hope things improve for you soon.

[dreamofdante]

KNow just what you mean, I was alone for years as well, its horrible isnt it, there isnt much else I can say apart from keep trying, and that I hope things improve for you soon.

I've been alone my entire life and I fear that won't change. Sigh. Thank you, CosmicNoodle.