xlBitterSweetlx
July 28th, 2014, 06:50 AM
Okay, so here's the thing...
I have 2 best..est friends, let's call them A and B.
A is my best friend from middle school, we've had a few years of friendship, but we're different in a lot of ways. It gets in the way often, but that's another topic.
B is my best friend from my current highschool, we became close really fast and we're quite alike in character, except that she is a bit more of the nervous type and recently became more 'adventurous', because guess what.
I introduced them to each other.
Now they're very close and when I'm busy they go out together. Okay, it's fine, because they always invite me. But A has made a bit of a difference to B. It's mostly positive things - B now dresses better, looks better, and as I said, is more adventurous.
So they've made me a few offers to do some fun things, most of them I would like to do but I'm either afraid or my stomach surgery, which was 1 year ago but I still don't play sports or carry heavy weight, stops me.
And when I say "No", I get the "Come on, relax, have some fun, this is stupid" phrase, and honestly I'm getting tired of it.
I've accepted that me 'having fun' is very restricted for now, and I just wish they would accept that I don't like taking risks and even if I wanted to, I often can't. They're not pressuring me or anything, it just makes me feel outcast. :( It's really not their fault, at least B says she understands, but I know how I look like in their eyes.. Ugh. >.<
I have 2 best..est friends, let's call them A and B.
A is my best friend from middle school, we've had a few years of friendship, but we're different in a lot of ways. It gets in the way often, but that's another topic.
B is my best friend from my current highschool, we became close really fast and we're quite alike in character, except that she is a bit more of the nervous type and recently became more 'adventurous', because guess what.
I introduced them to each other.
Now they're very close and when I'm busy they go out together. Okay, it's fine, because they always invite me. But A has made a bit of a difference to B. It's mostly positive things - B now dresses better, looks better, and as I said, is more adventurous.
So they've made me a few offers to do some fun things, most of them I would like to do but I'm either afraid or my stomach surgery, which was 1 year ago but I still don't play sports or carry heavy weight, stops me.
And when I say "No", I get the "Come on, relax, have some fun, this is stupid" phrase, and honestly I'm getting tired of it.
I've accepted that me 'having fun' is very restricted for now, and I just wish they would accept that I don't like taking risks and even if I wanted to, I often can't. They're not pressuring me or anything, it just makes me feel outcast. :( It's really not their fault, at least B says she understands, but I know how I look like in their eyes.. Ugh. >.<