GameSlasher
July 26th, 2014, 11:07 PM
I've been questioning for awhile and I'd like to... I don't know. Have some sort of advice or something like that.
Well... About my sexuality, I've already had a crush, but only on a person from the same sex as mine. My best friend. Even though I had experienced sexual attraction towards my old crush, I'm still unsure if this would mean that I'm homosexual since it happened only with this person and nobody else. Also since my childhood I didn't like the idea of having a relationship with the opposite sex, I was completely indifferent about having it with a member of the same sex as mine though. Right now, my views on it almost didn't change.
Now, it's my gender identity issue... I don't have the same story many trans people have, so I'm not sure if that's my case. Since my childhood, I used to feel as if there was something wrong with me, but I couldn't say what it was and I began to suspect that it was my gender identity because of some things: 1- I feel some sort of pain in my chest when I hear people talking about stereotypicaly things about the opposite sex as if I felt offended, but since this also happens when the say that about the sex I was born it could be easily ignored. 2- I've already had daydreams in which the worst one were about me not being able to be myself or never being able to be the opposite sex, it makes me cry sometimes. 3- I usually feel sad without knowing why since my life is great, there are even moments in which I feel suicidal and as if there's nothing good in my future of misery. That's something that changed when I thought of myself as a member of the opposite sex for almost two days. 4- I don't have my body, it could mean that I'm not trans at all. 5- Since I was a kid I wanted to wear clothes of the opposite sex.
That's all I've got to say for now.
Well... About my sexuality, I've already had a crush, but only on a person from the same sex as mine. My best friend. Even though I had experienced sexual attraction towards my old crush, I'm still unsure if this would mean that I'm homosexual since it happened only with this person and nobody else. Also since my childhood I didn't like the idea of having a relationship with the opposite sex, I was completely indifferent about having it with a member of the same sex as mine though. Right now, my views on it almost didn't change.
Now, it's my gender identity issue... I don't have the same story many trans people have, so I'm not sure if that's my case. Since my childhood, I used to feel as if there was something wrong with me, but I couldn't say what it was and I began to suspect that it was my gender identity because of some things: 1- I feel some sort of pain in my chest when I hear people talking about stereotypicaly things about the opposite sex as if I felt offended, but since this also happens when the say that about the sex I was born it could be easily ignored. 2- I've already had daydreams in which the worst one were about me not being able to be myself or never being able to be the opposite sex, it makes me cry sometimes. 3- I usually feel sad without knowing why since my life is great, there are even moments in which I feel suicidal and as if there's nothing good in my future of misery. That's something that changed when I thought of myself as a member of the opposite sex for almost two days. 4- I don't have my body, it could mean that I'm not trans at all. 5- Since I was a kid I wanted to wear clothes of the opposite sex.
That's all I've got to say for now.