self harming.

[beautifulinsanity]

hello everyone! i'm new here. i joined this community to talk to other cutters, seek for help and also help other people.
i'm going on vacation in 12 days, to my family in england. my parents, siblings and two of my friends are aware that i hurt myself. i had promised them to stop when i told them about the truth. but eventually, i started doing it again. and a couple of days ago, i could barely walk with short pants because my scars were visible. (i mostly hurt myself in the least visible places) shall i tell them about it again? it will definitely ruin their vacation and their happiness and i don't want that to happen, especially not because of me. my mother had told me that if i would ever hurt myself in any way possible, she'd send me to a therapist. i don't want that, but maybe it's better for me? or shall i tell them after my holiday? hiding it is killing me from the inside and i feel rather depressed lately and i have all the symptoms of a depression, but i'm too scared to tell them.. anybody got any advice?
(please no hate comments:))

[CosmicNoodle]

First things first, this is a moderated site designed to help people, there are no haters here, and anyone who does hate is uaually banned for some reason or another so you NEVER have to worry about hate here. Ever. On this site you can safely talk about anything.
And ye, you should tell them, you can't go on self harming, and seeing a therapist would really help, i though therapy was bullshit till I went, next thing I know I can't wait for my sessions these days. It really does help you, you need it, tell your parents, even if they dont understand it will help you. But I think you shoudl wait till after the holiday, providing your SH isnt causing to much risk.

And lastly, WELCOME TO VT BRITNEY! :)

[beautifulinsanity]

thanks for telling me that! i've been on plenty of websites where everyone insulted each other. thanks a lot for the advice! i guess i will do that. you're very kind! and thank you for replying. (i honestly don't know if i'm replying to your comment right in this way.. i'm still a newb here. :x )
if there's ever anything you want to talk about with me, i'm always here. ;D

thanks a lot! :3

[ChrisTJ]

Hey,

I can understand that you don't want your self harming behaviour to ruin your family's vacation and only you can make the decision whether to tell them and when to tell them. I would suggest you think about how likely it is that your family will see your scars while you are away on vacation. It could be that your family see your scars while on vacation and get upset so it might be an idea to let them know before so that they are prepared so that they don't get a shock that you are still cutting.

It also depends on whether you want to see a therapist, a lot of teenagers with depression actually find that a therapist helps them begin their journey out of depression. No one says it will be easy or quick but it's a good place to start. You could tell your parents about your self harm before going on vacation so that they are aware of it but tell them that you want to get help once you come back from vacation and may be willing to see a therapist about it. Only if you are happy with that of course.

I hope that has been of some help :)

[1_21Guns]

Honestly Britney, if I were you I'd tell them. (although I'll be honest when I was in your position a few years ago I didn't tell my family) I know it's scary and you don't want to ruin your holiday but I'm sure they'd be a bit suspicious if you were clearly hiding something. They're your family and they don't want to see you suffer.
I didn't want anything to do with a therapist when I went to the doctors to get help, but I went along with it and it's the best thing I've ever done. Therapy is a whole range of different kinds and methods and there will be one that helps you! Don't suffer in silence love, start your journey to recovery, it'll take time and it'll be hard, but it's worth it.
Of course as Christina said it's your choice as to whether you tell them or not, and only you can make that choice. Keeping it inside just makes things worse in the long run, and you never know, it might not ruin the holiday, it might be a bit rough at first but then you won't have to hide any more, and the sooner you reach out for help, the sooner things will start getting better.
Best of luck whatever you decide to do :hug3: