GHOST1234
July 24th, 2014, 10:03 AM
Hello everyone im 16 year old boy. Recently i have been using protein powder which killed my sex drive so i stopped taking it. I have been masturbating since i ve been 13 years old. I ve always masturbated to women not men. I only got aroused around woman and was horny almost all the time. But when my sex drive had gone I had started questioning my sexuality and have this obsessive thoughts what if im gay even though i still get an erection only to woman but it takes a lot more time than it did 2 weeks ago. I dont get aroused around man but only get this feeling of anxiety when i start to think what if im going to get hard or something like that. I have a long history of anxiety disorders including generalized anxiety disorder, derealization and ocd type symptoms and depression. I can hardly sleep at night because of my obsessive thoughts questioning my sexuality. I test myself every 15 minutes but I still havent find a clue that im gay except for that anxiety feel which is horrible. I ve had several crushes on girls but no girlfirends beacuse i havent really find one that would have feelings for me and i feelings for her at the same time. When im on the beach I only look at girls but sometimes test myself if im gay but still i dont get hard. What is going on? Is it only anxiety and overthinking?