thatgothgirluknow
July 13th, 2014, 11:16 PM
idk i really just dont know im numb to everything but pain i hate myself and everything else and i know its my fault i feel this way if i think about anything at all i hurt myself i just dont care anymore i hate me i hate that everybody left me and i hate that i know somebody is going to leave me again i want to tell them not to go but i know they dont care about me they didnt come for me and they dont need me im always in the way everyone always hurts me and i just feel like no one cares about me and no matter what anyone says i still hate everything about me im still jealus that other people have a family and are better than me i hate that im so differnt i feel like no one notices me and they wouldnt notice if i was gone my arms are completley covered in cuts but it will never be enough i need to punish me for thinking these things and just being me its the only way ill feel better but then i have to do it again later i started on my legs for the first time i just i dont know suicide is always on my mind but i wont go that far i hope just thx for reading my stupid rant