TheRedViper
July 10th, 2014, 08:36 PM
So I'm 17 and haven't had a girlfriend before. I don't think I'm particularly unattractive or anything, I just don't hang around with many girls, since I don't have much interest in many of them. The one I do I have been very good friends with for two years now. She's very different to me; in that she goes to heaps of parties, has various sexual relationships and has a different personality in general. Despite this we've got along very well with each other, and we know consider each other best friends.
This past holidays we've seen each other multiple times, and I've gone over to her house several times as well. We sit there and talk, and watch movies and funny stuff on our phones (and once earlier this week I tried some drugs with her that she's been doing for a while). She trusts me heaps and feels very comfortable around me; for example a few days ago we were in her room and she needed to get changed so she just did it right there in the room, although I looked away when she did.
She used to (I'm not sure how the situation is right now) have a boyfriend of one year. He was a few years older than her and I never met him. From the stories she's told me he's often a very mean and insulting person to her, and she would often say how she hates him and is done with him, but she's always end going back to him. She insists that this time it's different and it really is over.
This is where I'm at now. I know I have legitimate feelings for her. I care about her very much, more than anyone right now honestly. I know that this word gets thrown around a lot now, but I really do love her for who she is, not for her looks (which every single other guy does). The time I spend with her, whether it's at each others' houses, or out at shopping centres or even the boring dance rehearsals we have to do for a school dance, is the time I value most, just being with her. She's really important to me, and though I treasure our friendship more than anything, I would really like to see if it could go any further into something more like a relationship.
The only thing holding me back is the creeping though that I'm not good enough for her. As I said earlier I'm only average in looks, where as she is incredible. She often remarks about how many guys want to be with her and are trying to flirt with her via Facebook, although she tells me she rejects them all since they just want her for her body. I don't know whether she realizes that I'm the only guy that truly likes her for who she is.
I've wanted to ask her out for a while now, and came very close a few days ago, but didn't. I want to text her and ask if we can catch up to talk about something, but I'm worried she is getting annoyed that we're seeing each other so much (Monday and Wednesday we spent a large portion of the day together). This really is important to me though, and I want to get my feelings about her out in the open. I was thinking of telling her how much I care about her and how important she is to me, and that while I'm not like any other guy she's gone out with, I really do like her for who she is, since I've known her for ages; then I'd say something like 'maybe we could go out sometime just to see'.
Whenever I build up the courage to do this I get a feeling of insecurity, and I worry that maybe she only sees me as a good friend and nothing more. I just worry that since she's my only friend that's a girl that I'm close with, I probably won't have a girlfriend until after high school, which sucks. Sorry for the long post guys. Any advice would be appreciated.
This past holidays we've seen each other multiple times, and I've gone over to her house several times as well. We sit there and talk, and watch movies and funny stuff on our phones (and once earlier this week I tried some drugs with her that she's been doing for a while). She trusts me heaps and feels very comfortable around me; for example a few days ago we were in her room and she needed to get changed so she just did it right there in the room, although I looked away when she did.
She used to (I'm not sure how the situation is right now) have a boyfriend of one year. He was a few years older than her and I never met him. From the stories she's told me he's often a very mean and insulting person to her, and she would often say how she hates him and is done with him, but she's always end going back to him. She insists that this time it's different and it really is over.
This is where I'm at now. I know I have legitimate feelings for her. I care about her very much, more than anyone right now honestly. I know that this word gets thrown around a lot now, but I really do love her for who she is, not for her looks (which every single other guy does). The time I spend with her, whether it's at each others' houses, or out at shopping centres or even the boring dance rehearsals we have to do for a school dance, is the time I value most, just being with her. She's really important to me, and though I treasure our friendship more than anything, I would really like to see if it could go any further into something more like a relationship.
The only thing holding me back is the creeping though that I'm not good enough for her. As I said earlier I'm only average in looks, where as she is incredible. She often remarks about how many guys want to be with her and are trying to flirt with her via Facebook, although she tells me she rejects them all since they just want her for her body. I don't know whether she realizes that I'm the only guy that truly likes her for who she is.
I've wanted to ask her out for a while now, and came very close a few days ago, but didn't. I want to text her and ask if we can catch up to talk about something, but I'm worried she is getting annoyed that we're seeing each other so much (Monday and Wednesday we spent a large portion of the day together). This really is important to me though, and I want to get my feelings about her out in the open. I was thinking of telling her how much I care about her and how important she is to me, and that while I'm not like any other guy she's gone out with, I really do like her for who she is, since I've known her for ages; then I'd say something like 'maybe we could go out sometime just to see'.
Whenever I build up the courage to do this I get a feeling of insecurity, and I worry that maybe she only sees me as a good friend and nothing more. I just worry that since she's my only friend that's a girl that I'm close with, I probably won't have a girlfriend until after high school, which sucks. Sorry for the long post guys. Any advice would be appreciated.