It gets worse at night

[glashrt18]

All throughout the day my mind eats at itself about the insurmountable feeling of loneliness the longing to not fall asleep alone, to wake up happy with a family that loved me to a past that doesn't haunt me a future that doesn't frighten me, but at night I realize just how bad each day has been that is when I cry internally and try to stop thinking the last thoughts I usually have in a day are I have no one I'll be no one just for a day I wish I could live without the void in my soul to live like I am alive, I don't know why I'm posting this I guess I just want someone to hear my story

[Celtics]

I think at night, it gets worse for everyone. I can never sleep anymore, I'm tired right now and my eyes hurt, but I will probably stay up till 4 am listening to music. I have a "loving" family but I have no one to talk to, no friends, no life, no nothing. I hear you, we just have to hope it gets better.

[diddykong53]

For me at night ill be laying therein bed and all of a sudden this wave hits me. I hear voices of my own voice saying things like you're worthless Andrew, no one will ever love you because you're a fat piece of you know what. And things of that nature. And I hold my head and roll around but they don't go away. So I out on headphones and pump some loud music into me and most of the time it work, but sometimes the voices scream louder than the words to the song. I'm so sick of it, and I hate myself. Even writing this is making them come a bit. :(

[nerdyvixxen]

All throughout the day my mind eats at itself about the insurmountable feeling of loneliness the longing to not fall asleep alone, to wake up happy with a family that loved me to a past that doesn't haunt me a future that doesn't frighten me, but at night I realize just how bad each day has been that is when I cry internally and try to stop thinking the last thoughts I usually have in a day are I have no one I'll be no one just for a day I wish I could live without the void in my soul to live like I am alive, I don't know why I'm posting this I guess I just want someone to hear my story

Wow, i feel the exact same way.