why am I even typing this right now

[Babs]

This whole thing will sound ridiculous. I realize that. But I really can't help but talk about it somewhere.
I feel like my entire life is going in slow motion. It's driving me crazy. It's the same thing everyday. I feel like there's nothing. There's nothing here for me. I feel trapped.
I feel like I'm overreacting about everything, like it's not all that bad; my life isn't the worst in the world. Maybe I'm too hateful and angry at everything that happens and everything that doesn't happen.
And I can't help but feel like... I don't know how to explain it... well, to put it simply, there were a few moments within the last few months where I was mad at myself and embarrassed over a few things that happened and I can't help but feel like people wanted those things to happen.
Fuck, that sounds so stupid.
in summation, I feel really empty, and when I feel something, I feel angry and embarrassed and hateful. I don't know what to do or where to turn to. I'm so fucking pissed at myself for being the way I am and for the fact that I'm seemingly unable to change. I'm unable to fix myself and become the person I want to be. No matter how hard I try, I can't become that person. And I feel like if I'm not who I should be, there's really no point to being me... if that makes sense.

[gothy]

Thats how i often feel. That makes a lot of sense. If you want to talk PM me. I am here for you.

[Karkat]

I can actually relate to this a lot. I kind of feel out of control of my life, and I'll go from being angry to extremely depressed. Usually when I try to change things, and I get happy about my life, I just get smacked in the face with reality, and that to me is embarrassing. (You'd think someone in my position wouldn't care much about their dignity or be prideful...I am. Maybe that's what's holding me back.)

Anyways, I feel for you. I'm sorry you're going through this right now.

[Blood]

Your feelings aren't ridiculous, so you shouldn't say they are. You feel the way you feel for a reason. I don't know exactly what that reason is but I'm sure it's important.

Berea, if you feel like your life isn't going anywhere, change that. Pick up a new hobby. Try new things. Find something you really love to do and stick with it.

Don't try so hard to be the person you think you should be. Focus on being happy. Do things you enjoy. Life goes by too fast to worry about being someone you're not. There's nothing wrong with positive changes, however trying to make those changes happen should not be making you a miserable person.

None of this sounds stupid. Your feelings aren't stupid. I'm here if you want to talk.

[diddykong53]

I feel empty like you said, I feel everything, things make me either really happy or really sad. I feel like I'm just not made to be alive. I'm not good at living so I lay in bed all day and text people and ignore my parents. I feel you. I think maybe if we hold on to the good things in life then, on a few years things will be better. Don't go

[AllTimeLoser]

I feel empty permanently these days tbh... like what even is the point of living? But I keep doing it and I keep trying to find who I actually am and maybe i'm close, maybe i'm as far away as possible but... you just need to keep trying. Because everybody has a purpose, even if for now it's something as simple as getting up in the morning and putting on a happy show for the world.