overgrown
July 7th, 2014, 11:09 AM
I'm an 18 year old girl, and recently I've started to consider the fact that I might be bisexual.
I'm initially attracted to men (if I walk into a room I first pay attention to the attractive males as opposed to women), but I also find women attractive. For a while I considered asexuality or gray asexuality since I can't imagine myself having sex with men, but with women that idea seems much more tempting. I've had many crushes/been emotionally attracted to men but not the same way to women. However I think this might have something to do with the fact that I have absolutely no idea how to tell if women are gay or not, and I'm definitely not attracted to straight women (so to simplify, I suppose I assume most women are straight because I HAVE NO IDEA).
I can imagine myself having a relationship with a man, romantically and sensually but without the sexual component (to be honest male genitalia sort of grosses me out). I don't know if I can form a romantic bond with a woman in the same way, because I've never really been in that situation, although I can also imagine a relationship with a woman. I suppose the way relationships are portrayed in the media might have something to do with my hesitation...you don't see a lot of normal, lesbian relationships so I don't know what to expect.
I guess I'd like to experiment but I don't really know how to go about this - I'm not out to anyone and I don't want to come out as something I'm not since I have no idea. Any advice or similar stories would be appreciated :s
I'm initially attracted to men (if I walk into a room I first pay attention to the attractive males as opposed to women), but I also find women attractive. For a while I considered asexuality or gray asexuality since I can't imagine myself having sex with men, but with women that idea seems much more tempting. I've had many crushes/been emotionally attracted to men but not the same way to women. However I think this might have something to do with the fact that I have absolutely no idea how to tell if women are gay or not, and I'm definitely not attracted to straight women (so to simplify, I suppose I assume most women are straight because I HAVE NO IDEA).
I can imagine myself having a relationship with a man, romantically and sensually but without the sexual component (to be honest male genitalia sort of grosses me out). I don't know if I can form a romantic bond with a woman in the same way, because I've never really been in that situation, although I can also imagine a relationship with a woman. I suppose the way relationships are portrayed in the media might have something to do with my hesitation...you don't see a lot of normal, lesbian relationships so I don't know what to expect.
I guess I'd like to experiment but I don't really know how to go about this - I'm not out to anyone and I don't want to come out as something I'm not since I have no idea. Any advice or similar stories would be appreciated :s