deep, deep insanity

[The Lone Assassin]

For years I've been going insane. And I'm not joking either. But this time, I've really hit rock bottom.

This week I finally finished my exams. So I've left school. But I have not felt happy the whole of this week. Not even yesterday, when I actually left school.

I am positive I've driven a friend of mine away (I fancy him BTW) and frankly I'm so unhappy, I want to throw myself in front of a bus and be done with life.

I have had enough of everything. My dogs are annoying me, my brother keeps moaning at me and discussing things with my parents makes it worse.

The only things I have left are friends (very few). And I've purity much given up on everything. So I really don't know what to. Either I hope, or just be done with life.

I'm sorry if I've bored you or wasted your time, I just need some help.

[Bmble_B]

For years I've been going insane. And I'm not joking either. But this time, I've really hit rock bottom.

This week I finally finished my exams. So I've left school. But I have not felt happy the whole of this week. Not even yesterday, when I actually left school.

I am positive I've driven a friend of mine away (I fancy him BTW) and frankly I'm so unhappy, I want to throw myself in front of a bus and be done with life.

I have had enough of everything. My dogs are annoying me, my brother keeps moaning at me and discussing things with my parents makes it worse.

The only things I have left are friends (very few). And I've purity much given up on everything. So I really don't know what to. Either I hope, or just be done with life.

I'm sorry if I've bored you or wasted your time, I just need some help.

Don't ever say that. You never waste our time by sharing your problems with us, it's actually good to let that all out. And Conor, everything will get better soon. Try to see if you can at least get back on speaking terms with the friend you think you drove away. And what do you mean your brother keeps moaning at you? Maybe it's because I just woke up, but what do you mean he's moaning at you?

[TheLoneWolf]

First of all, don't kill yourself! You never waste our time with a topic, otherwise we wouldn't read it.
Is there anyone you can get help from? Maybe the friend you drove away?
Since you've left school your probably on your holidays right now. Maybe try out some new things. Go to a park or a pub and make some friends.

Things will get better, we're here for you :)

[Living For Love]

I think you should calm down a bit first, and take a deep breath. Your exams are over, so now you have a bit more time to think about your life and your future plans. You're definitely not a waste, you're a young person with a great life ahead, think about everything you could do in the future.

About your friends, they enter our life as quickly as they leave, so I'm sure you'll find other friends when school start again. And you said you still have some, so you could arrange something to do together. If you prefer to be on your own, you could always join a club or start a new hobby, something that makes you happy. Don't give up now, please. And we're always here for you. :)

[Leprous]

You never bore us, you never waste our time by looking for help on this forum, everyone here is there for ypu :). Never give up, and stay strong. Suicide is never the answer, I've been there, and trust me, I'm glad I failed. You should look for people to talk to, either here or at home. We are always there for you. And stay strong buddy. :)

[Karkat]

You're not wasting your time. A lot of us feel this way too, and we can sympathize with you greatly. I'm actually kind of notorious for writing LONG SPIELS ABOUT HOW MY LIFE IS GOING WRONG so if ANYONE is boring anyone, or wasting anyone's time, it's me.

And considering the fact that everyone here is pretty supportive of my whiny ass, and helps cheer me up every time, I'd say that I'm not even a time waster (somehow. You guys are patient as fuck)

I can't speak for EVERYONE, but if you wanted to vent to me, I'd be more than welcome to lend an ear. And while I suck in the advice-giving department, I'd try my best to help.

As far as right now, the best 'help' I can give is to do one of the remaining things you do enjoy. Even if you're thinking "nah, that's a really shitty idea", make yourself do it. Try your best to have fun. Take your mind off things.

I hope you feel better soon, ok? :hug:

[The Lone Assassin]

Thank you guys so much for your help and support. I feel much better and if push comes to shove, I shall sort the other things out. I honestly wouldn't have made it without you guys. Your awesome.