LuckyEddy
June 13th, 2014, 03:41 AM
So I have problems getting girls, and my friend suggested to me to slay some dragons so to speak. So I hit up this girl who is IMO fat (you think im being a douche but read the whole thing.) So I started talking to her and she seems pretty cool and shes smart unlike alot of the girls i've talked to. And this made me think.
All of the girls I've had crushes on were based soley on looks. A few of them turned out to be really ugly people. Some of the girls I liked were very widely liked by the whole school and I feel like alot of the reason I put so much emotion into them was for my own self validation. And it made me realize I have no clue what love really is in isolation from others opinions.
Back to the fat girl. Looking at her pics, I actually have no clue if I find her arousing. I mean I could get it up, but I can get an erection and masturbate to orgasm to cars. I did get aroused looking at her pics, but I'm having a hard time telling if its because I was forcing myself to get aroused or because I fancy her. Sometimes I'll look at pics of really hot girls that ive been insanely attracted to and nothing, but sometimes I'll see a fat girl who was never attractive and go nuts .
She dosen't seem like the type to want casual sex, so If I were to persue her, I would most likely have to get into a relationship with her. The thing is, im not sure if I find being in a relationship my cup of tea anymore. Part of me would say WHY? And one of the big reasons I wanted one when I was younger was to prove to the world I'm not a loser. I'm over that now.
The only thing really stopping me is I don't want to break this girl's heart if it comes to be that I don't like her. I know how it feels to feel unwanted and I wouldn't want to know that I took advantage of a girl just to get laid. Even though I know it would be more than that, It still wouldn't feel okay at all.
All of the girls I've had crushes on were based soley on looks. A few of them turned out to be really ugly people. Some of the girls I liked were very widely liked by the whole school and I feel like alot of the reason I put so much emotion into them was for my own self validation. And it made me realize I have no clue what love really is in isolation from others opinions.
Back to the fat girl. Looking at her pics, I actually have no clue if I find her arousing. I mean I could get it up, but I can get an erection and masturbate to orgasm to cars. I did get aroused looking at her pics, but I'm having a hard time telling if its because I was forcing myself to get aroused or because I fancy her. Sometimes I'll look at pics of really hot girls that ive been insanely attracted to and nothing, but sometimes I'll see a fat girl who was never attractive and go nuts .
She dosen't seem like the type to want casual sex, so If I were to persue her, I would most likely have to get into a relationship with her. The thing is, im not sure if I find being in a relationship my cup of tea anymore. Part of me would say WHY? And one of the big reasons I wanted one when I was younger was to prove to the world I'm not a loser. I'm over that now.
The only thing really stopping me is I don't want to break this girl's heart if it comes to be that I don't like her. I know how it feels to feel unwanted and I wouldn't want to know that I took advantage of a girl just to get laid. Even though I know it would be more than that, It still wouldn't feel okay at all.