never felt like i had a home

[thatgothgirluknow]

most people know where theyll be and what itll be like one day to the next but with me its differnt because i live with my grandma last year i almost got taken away by csb and im constantly worried that kick me out because well shes like that im always in her way in everything she constantly threatens to kick me out today she said she didnt want to have to worry about me and wanted to send me to florida to live with my mom when her bf left i hate feeling this way i always feel like ill never have a home to call my own everything is constanly changing at first it was me and my great grandma now one day my moms here the next shes gone and im with my grandma and grandpa then im with her and a bf then its just her its just tiring feeling like they could just get rid of u in a secound im sick of feeling like a burden

[sixguy6]

Well I'm so sorry to hear that.idk what to say in this situation but what I do know is that your mum loves you be fun much even she might not show it

[KieranRules]

Your situation sounds like one I would rather not be in if I'm honest. Therefore I genuinely feel sorry for you but I wouldn't go too far and say you're a burden. No matter what you may believe, whether it is religion, science or whatever, you must know that all life is valuable in some way, shape or form. Saying that, I don't think anyone could see their child as a burden and if they really do, don't worry about it! I bet you are a fantastic person waiting to show the world what you can do and when you do, you'll know who the really burden was. At the end of the day, I can tell, without even knowing you, that you are special and will quite possibly never be a burden to anyone. I hope it gets better and you don't take it too badly if it doesn't. Life just ain't that easy, but you can always make it easier by carrying on without looking back.

Consider this; a home is what everyone wants and what most people have but never the less they are always overused and that means people who are comfy in their nice little home all day will never feel the will to go outside of there comfort zone which means they're less likely to do more fun things. Consider the 'no home' part as something that you can use to your advantage; why stay in a place which doesn't feel like home when you can go out and explore. I know you're only 14 but things like photography, film, friends don't require you to go out of town. Just look at the bright side.

Good luck with everything! :)

[Dalcourt]

I understand how you feel. I have that feeling, too sometimes. I lived with maternal grandma, then with two different foster families, with an aunt ,my paternal grandparents...and I'm now with my Dad for a couple of year...he is a drug addict and abusive, but still I feel more of having a home with him than with everyone else I ever stayed, but still I'm always in danger of being thrown out or taken away.
I really wish for stability and security that is normal in other families...but well I guess I'll never really have that...with my dad I never felt like a burden as I did with my grandparents and aunt... I guess you just have to take your live as it is and don't think too much about it.

[LouBerry]

most people know where theyll be and what itll be like one day to the next but with me its differnt because i live with my grandma last year i almost got taken away by csb and im constantly worried that kick me out because well shes like that im always in her way in everything she constantly threatens to kick me out today she said she didnt want to have to worry about me and wanted to send me to florida to live with my mom when her bf left i hate feeling this way i always feel like ill never have a home to call my own everything is constanly changing at first it was me and my great grandma now one day my moms here the next shes gone and im with my grandma and grandpa then im with her and a bf then its just her its just tiring feeling like they could just get rid of u in a secound im sick of feeling like a burden

I used to feel like this everyday, and it lead to me trying to commit suicide. It's very important to understand that even if you don't have one right now, someday you will find a place you truly belong. You will find a home. Some people don't realize that a home isn't a physical location, but the things and people you love. Someday, someone is going to love you more than you can even imagine being loved, and you're going to find a home with them. It might be a best friend, a family member, a youth group, a significant other, anyone, but it will happen. You just have to hold on and make it to that point.

[thatgothgirluknow]

I understand how you feel. I have that feeling, too sometimes. I lived with maternal grandma, then with two different foster families, with an aunt ,my paternal grandparents...and I'm now with my Dad for a couple of year...he is a drug addict and abusive, but still I feel more of having a home with him than with everyone else I ever stayed, but still I'm always in danger of being thrown out or taken away.
I really wish for stability and security that is normal in other families...but well I guess I'll never really have that...with my dad I never felt like a burden as I did with my grandparents and aunt... I guess you just have to take your live as it is and don't think too much about it.

I used to feel like this everyday, and it lead to me trying to commit suicide. It's very important to understand that even if you don't have one right now, someday you will find a place you truly belong. You will find a home. Some people don't realize that a home isn't a physical location, but the things and people you love. Someday, someone is going to love you more than you can even imagine being loved, and you're going to find a home with them. It might be a best friend, a family member, a youth group, a significant other, anyone, but it will happen. You just have to hold on and make it to that point.
thx guys

[gothy]

i dont know what to say. i know what it is like feeling unwanted. my dad used to kick me out when he got mad at me. I dont think its quite the same. . .

well, i know what it is like in the sense that people sometimes have seemed to not want me and wish is was gone. but still, im not doing a very good job relating to this. just dont feel bad about yourself. you are only 14 and none of it is in your control or your fault. you are still really really young. Im here for you as always. hope you are alright.