I did it again....wow....just wow

[CosmicNoodle]

Well, earlier today I was with some friends, and....wait...you need some context...I shall supply some.

I used to do weed...a lot. I haven't done it for 7 months now, quoting was part of my clean up prosecc in which I was supposed to "turn my life around", fix the depression and my alcohol issues. Along with weed.

And it went, easy actually, its not an addictive substance so I never craved for it. It was perhaps the easiest part of the clean up. Haven't thought about it since I quit.

Back to the story, I was with my friends, and they pulled out a splif...it didn't bother me, I'm used to my friends doing casual weed. It was something we used to do together so.
And then they offered me a puff...and well...you know the rest.


I just feel like shit, 7 months without and I relapsed o to a none addictive drug for no other reason than social pressure. I just feel like a sack of shit. I let myself down.

Don't know what I hoped to achive but my rants over, don't let the door hit your but on the way out.

[NathansPen]

don't be too harsh about what you did.. having been able to abstain from weeds for 7 months was impressive. i knew some weeds-dependent people having difficulty in quitting such. so i believe you can go back to the track again and continue your clean living.

[Suave]

I wouldn't be that mad at myself if I was in the same situation. You said it yourself it was the easiest part of your clean up.

[Thatcarguy]

its only weed man youre gunna do it once and i while who cares i was never into the weed scene but once and a while ill have a few tokes

[xXoblivionXx]

Hey Joe,

Like they people said before me, don't beat yourself up over it, people will always have an impact on other people, that's why it's good to surround yourself with people who are good people and care about you. Like you said, weed isn't addictive so you shouldn't have a hard time getting back on track. I believe in you, you it this :)

[Mushin]

I just feel like shit, 7 months without and I relapsed o to a none addictive drug for no other reason than social pressure. I just feel like a sack of shit. I let myself down.

This is contradictory. You claim marijuana is not a (physically) addictive substance, yet you're also stating that you have let yourself down by relapsing on a (non) addictive substance. How does that work?

The only reason why you're feeling this way is because you're allowing the substance to control you. Remember, you control the substance. Not the other way around. The decision to take a hit was yours, the spliff did not force its way into your mouth.

What you're doing is separating yourself into a higher and lower person. You're insinuating that by falling to the wants of your lower person, you've let your higher self down. As if you should be in more control or have made a different decision. It doesn't matter. There isn't a duality between a higher mind and a lower mind, so what exactly of yourself did you let down?

I've been down the road you're on before lots of times. Honestly, if you don't allow the substance to take control of you like you've allowed it to, you're going to be fine. Don't even count it as a "relapse" because that's not what it is.

You have a good head on your shoulders, so stop worrying about nothing.

[lucygrove]

tried it once - made me feel ill - never again