Losing Control

[Microcosm]

It seems to me now that everything I do is wrong. I never really help anyone and I always act selfish and bitchy to everyone and all my friends and it's like I can't help it. I am impatient and selfish and I don't know how to change it and my friends always get pissed off at me and I get really depressed. I have been given many things in my life. I have a great family and wonderful friends and an ok amount of money, but I am extremely depressed because of the way I act around people. I am going into high school and I want to change. I am not a bully in school. I don't really play many sports and I can't get into playing video games like most people so it is very difficult for me to find something to get my mind off things. I need help. Please if you have any suggestions or advice that can help me I would really appreciate it. My dad has bipolar depression and I think that I might have it as well. I am medicated but it isn't really helping me anymore. Please help.

[Ben_Frost]

Have you told someone else about this? I think you need to have your meds doses adjusted since they don't seem to be working.
You say you know you're bing impatient and selfish, then what you need to do is learn to be patient, when you feel like you're losing your patience then count to 10 slowly, or think about something that makes you happy. And about being selfish, think about how you would feel if someone was like that to you. It has worked for me and I hope it does work for you.

[tbake98]

I would definitely talk to someone. A parent, counselor, someone at church (if you're religious). It's never a bad thing to have as many people aware of/helping you with a situation like this. Depression is a horrible thing to have to deal with alone. And, if you're depressed because of the way you act around certain people... make a mental note of what was said/done to make them react that way. Some of it may be reacting too quickly -- not giving yourself the time needed to think things through.

[JamesSuperBoy]

It seems to me now that everything I do is wrong. I never really help anyone and I always act selfish and bitchy to everyone and all my friends and it's like I can't help it. I am impatient and selfish and I don't know how to change it and my friends always get pissed off at me and I get really depressed. I have been given many things in my life. I have a great family and wonderful friends and an ok amount of money, but I am extremely depressed because of the way I act around people. I am going into high school and I want to change. I am not a bully in school. I don't really play many sports and I can't get into playing video games like most people so it is very difficult for me to find something to get my mind off things. I need help. Please if you have any suggestions or advice that can help me I would really appreciate it. My dad has bipolar depression and I think that I might have it as well. I am medicated but it isn't really helping me anymore. Please help.

Maybe you need to develop interests - nothing wrong with not playing video games - I do not but will join in with friends sometimes -

If your meds are not helping - then see you doctor -

[Microcosm]

Have you told someone else about this? I think you need to have your meds doses adjusted since they don't seem to be working.
You say you know you're bing impatient and selfish, then what you need to do is learn to be patient, when you feel like you're losing your patience then count to 10 slowly, or think about something that makes you happy. And about being selfish, think about how you would feel if someone was like that to you. It has worked for me and I hope it does work for you.

I would definitely talk to someone. A parent, counselor, someone at church (if you're religious). It's never a bad thing to have as many people aware of/helping you with a situation like this. Depression is a horrible thing to have to deal with alone. And, if you're depressed because of the way you act around certain people... make a mental note of what was said/done to make them react that way. Some of it may be reacting too quickly -- not giving yourself the time needed to think things through.

Thanks for the responses guys. I used to see a counselor regularly. I don't anymore and even when I did I never really told him anything. I just couldn't trust him. I think I will start posting on this site if I need to talk to someone. It really helps me and I feel better now that I've seen your responses. It means a lot to me. Also Ben, I will try to start counting to ten at my impatience. I think that might help. And tbake, I am going to go through in my mind what the problem is and I'll do my best to fix it. Thanks for the responses.

[Microcosm]

Maybe you need to develop interests - nothing wrong with not playing video games - I do not but will join in with friends sometimes -

If your meds are not helping - then see you doctor -

Thanks for your response.

I don't know if it is some form of disorder I have or what, but I find it difficult to develop interests. I look at everything as if it is supposed to have finite reason. For instance, when I play video games I feel like it is wasting time. When I do pretty much anything I feel like there is no point to it. I have been trying really hard to develop hobbies and interests to suit my needs but nothing seems to work. I have stopped writing poetry for a bit and that helped me vent a little bit, so I might pick that back up.

[JamesSuperBoy]

Thanks for your response.

I don't know if it is some form of disorder I have or what, but I find it difficult to develop interests. I look at everything as if it is supposed to have finite reason. For instance, when I play video games I feel like it is wasting time. When I do pretty much anything I feel like there is no point to it. I have been trying really hard to develop hobbies and interests to suit my needs but nothing seems to work. I have stopped writing poetry for a bit and that helped me vent a little bit, so I might pick that back up.


Are you wasting time ?? many things can improve overall skills and such spending time with friends =

If you dont know about a form of disorder then find out = I think once you knew or were reassured you would feel better -

[Microcosm]

Are you wasting time ?? many things can improve overall skills and such spending time with friends =

If you dont know about a form of disorder then find out = I think once you knew or were reassured you would feel better -

I'll do some research and see what I can figure out. Maybe that will help. Also, I did go out with some friends and ride around a bit about an hour after making the original post and that helped a good bit. I think you are right.

Thanks for taking the time to respond as well.