Remora
June 10th, 2014, 02:18 PM
so trying to not make this into a story
anyways we had this school thing where we were forced to pay for this surfing thing, and we had to change into wetsuits
beeing the boy i am i was really against the thing in general (because paying for something you dont want) and then when i heard we had to put on the wetsuits i was all like "oh HELL no" (because shy and/or insecure). The initial surfing and rowing on a surfboard were okay (despite the fact i were absolutely terrible at both)
And there he was, let's call him Aaron (yay! pichu) in my "team", as usual just beeing good at everything and at the same time not a dick which seems to be his speciality, he even helped me out because i kept falling off the boards >.< (although he wasn't *so great* at it either).
Anyways, it was fun, and UGH my crush with him grew a little more (it needs to stop) after we were done...
And we were done. We had a shower. There were 3 cabins with showers and doors and stuff :I (he closed it when he was using it :c) i just stepped under it quickly and ran out ASAP (insecure again) getting my clothes on, also ASAP (not any less insecure) only to have to wait because i didn't want to leave on my own (still shy). He came out, soaked, in boxer briefs and i died a little and the crush is terrible again and i don't know what to do!
it seems like i got over it twice already, but it kept coming back worse... the things i would do to be with him... :c
What do i do? -can- i get over it? I don't think he's interested in males, and even if he was, what kind of human entity would show interest in the monster that is "me"?
anyways we had this school thing where we were forced to pay for this surfing thing, and we had to change into wetsuits
beeing the boy i am i was really against the thing in general (because paying for something you dont want) and then when i heard we had to put on the wetsuits i was all like "oh HELL no" (because shy and/or insecure). The initial surfing and rowing on a surfboard were okay (despite the fact i were absolutely terrible at both)
And there he was, let's call him Aaron (yay! pichu) in my "team", as usual just beeing good at everything and at the same time not a dick which seems to be his speciality, he even helped me out because i kept falling off the boards >.< (although he wasn't *so great* at it either).
Anyways, it was fun, and UGH my crush with him grew a little more (it needs to stop) after we were done...
And we were done. We had a shower. There were 3 cabins with showers and doors and stuff :I (he closed it when he was using it :c) i just stepped under it quickly and ran out ASAP (insecure again) getting my clothes on, also ASAP (not any less insecure) only to have to wait because i didn't want to leave on my own (still shy). He came out, soaked, in boxer briefs and i died a little and the crush is terrible again and i don't know what to do!
it seems like i got over it twice already, but it kept coming back worse... the things i would do to be with him... :c
What do i do? -can- i get over it? I don't think he's interested in males, and even if he was, what kind of human entity would show interest in the monster that is "me"?