screwed up

[CharlieHorse]

I currently am enrolled in a middle college program, where I take college classes at the local community college for high-school and college credit. I'm a junior otherwise.
I've screwed up. I've failed enough classes so that i will be kicked out of the program at the end if the semester. I'll be going back to the local high-school, which I hate so much, and I won't be graduating on time, if at all.
I'm severely depressed, have been ever since i went to highschool, and beginning to feel suicidal because I've just about wasted my whole life. If i dont graduate, I'm basically useless and worthless to society. I hate myself. I want to die, but there are things in life I still enjoy, and people who care about me. I don't know what to do.

[Microcosm]

First of all, I'm here for you if you need to talk some time :)

Second of all, it's good that you still enjoy things. Some people who are severely depressed just lose all interest in everything(trust me I know the feeling). I know you feel that it is over now but it really isn't. Just get back up and keep trying.

"It's not about how many times you can hit, it's about how many times you can get hit and keep moving forward."

That's one of my favorite quotes and I think it is relevant here.

Best wishes. Hope I helped. :D

[Abyssal Echo]

Charlie you're not useless or worthless you're an awesome person that's a lot of fun to be around :) I'm sorry to hear that you're failing :( When you told me about the program I thought it would be an awesome opportunity for you. I was hoping things would get better at home for you too. We haven't talked much this semester but, from what you told me I thought you were going to talk to your teacher about getting some help. I'm always here for ya anytime you want to talk.

[CharlieHorse]

Maybe I should update this.

Thank you guys. Your kind words helped me keep myself together.

I'm going back to normal highschool. Leaving behind friends and going to a place where I dont have any.
I don't know what to think about it.
Hopefully I'll find a way to make it work.

[Body odah Man]

good luck and may God help you.

[CosmicNoodle]

Maybe I should update this.

Thank you guys. Your kind words helped me keep myself together.

I'm going back to normal highschool. Leaving behind friends and going to a place where I dont have any.
I don't know what to think about it.
Hopefully I'll find a way to make it work.

Glad your sorting things out, good luck going back to high school buddy. And look on the bright side, you may have to leave behind some friends but now ou get to make new ones, and I'm sure you will, through the limited interaction I've had with you I can confidently say your someone I'd want to have as a friend. Sure youll do well, just try your best.

[terrydactyl]

Don't worry, I am sure you will do fine. I am really awkward when meeting new people, but when I started my new school I ended up with some really good friends who understand me well. I am sure the same will happen for you too. :-)

[ImCoolBeans]

You haven't wasted your whole life, you're life has barely just begun. If you're unhappy with life, take this as an opportunity to turn around your grades and buckle down a little bit so that you can get your high school diploma. You're not even close to a waste, and you're definitely capable of reaching your full potential, but you won't get there unless you set goals for yourself and make it happen. Nobody can change your life except for you, and you have the power to do it, and are approaching your opportunity to.