life sucks

[bob97]

This is going to be pretty long.

I am sort of a sociopath. I don't feel emotions like normal people do. I am never truly happy. I have severe depression, anxiety, ADD and ADHD. Recently me and my girlfriend broke up. She was the love of my life and I ruined everything. The only time I have been happy was with her. I was going to kill myself before I went out with her and she was the only reason I'm still alive.

We broke up 3 months ago and got back together 3 weeks ago. We were planning on going out then she said that I make her unhappy and cut me out of her life. After that I started cutting and have contemplated suicide. Everyday really.

My mom and step dad dont love me. The only reason they still have me in there life is to use me to do their chores. I have not said I love you to her in 7 years and I haven't hugged her in 3. The rest of mu family that I do love I haven't had any contact with for 4 years because my mom refuses to talk to them because they dont like my step dad because he got caught watching child porn by the government.

So the only person in my life that I love and makes me happy now doesn't like me. I am probably going to kill myself soon. I know there are other girls and all that crap but I can't wait years to be happy again with someone else. Can someone help me and give me real advice on how to get over her? Everything anyone says is generic crap that doesn't work. Thanks for reading this whole thing.

[xXoblivionXx]

Hey Caelen,
First of all I just wanted to say, Please please do't kill yourself. I know that your mom and you have a broken relationship but she will miss you if you committed suicide, your other family that you love and will miss you so much. I will miss you so much and I will probably be really pissed and sad that I wasn't able to help you. Your friends will miss you too.

If you don't like the way your life is right now at home, change it. I know it's way easier said than done but really sometimes it's that simple. Your going off to college soon right? That can help you get away and start a new life. One that you are happy of.

As for your ex, please excuse my french but that was kind of a bitchy thing to do, just shut you out of her life when you really needed her. But here's the thing, you don't need her. I used to always think that for me to be happy I needed to find a guy who would love me and tell me that I was smart and beautiful and I guess love what I was insecure about. But then I realized, no guy no matter how much they loved me could do that. I needed to love myself first. And once I did, people noticed, they noticed that I was a nice and fun person.
So what I'm trying to say that you will find someone else to love you, you will find an even better girlfriend but first you have to be true to yourself and then you will find someone who will love you at your best and your worst.

I hope I helped. Seriously, PM me when ever, never be shy or think that it is a wrong time. And Caelen, please be safe, we care about you, a lot. :hug3:

[CosmicNoodle]

Hey Caelen,
First of all I just wanted to say, Please please do't kill yourself. I know that your mom and you have a broken relationship but she will miss you if you committed suicide, your other family that you love and will miss you so much. I will miss you so much and I will probably be really pissed and sad that I wasn't able to help you. Your friends will miss you too.

If you don't like the way your life is right now at home, change it. I know it's way easier said than done but really sometimes it's that simple. Your going off to college soon right? That can help you get away and start a new life. One that you are happy of.

As for your ex, please excuse my french but that was kind of a bitchy thing to do, just shut you out of her life when you really needed her. But here's the thing, you don't need her. I used to always think that for me to be happy I needed to find a guy who would love me and tell me that I was smart and beautiful and I guess love what I was insecure about. But then I realized, no guy no matter how much they loved me could do that. I needed to love myself first. And once I did, people noticed, they noticed that I was a nice and fun person.
So what I'm trying to say that you will find someone else to love you, you will find an even better girlfriend but first you have to be true to yourself and then you will find someone who will love you at your best and your worst.

I hope I helped. Seriously, PM me when ever, never be shy or think that it is a wrong time. And Caelen, please be safe, we care about you, a lot. :hug3:

This ^ word for word.

I know life's shot buddy, I've been in the same place, where cutting was the only option of you wnrpted to stay sane, and that suicide looked so tempting, its crap isn't it?

Don't worry, life's shot now, but it does get better, I know you said no generic advice, but it really dose. And I once hears an amazing quote, "your first love, will show you that your first love, wasn't really your first love". Understand? It means you thought you where happy now, trust me, soon you'll fond an even better girl that will make you even happier, I did ;)

And like xYz... Said, college will give you a new start, defiantly for the better. And if your struggling withdepression and cutting, tella friend, a doctor, anyone. Really, having someone to talk to about it really does help.

P.M me any time of you want to talk, I'm all ears.

Hang in there, keep trudging soldier.

[Ben_Frost]

You don't need to be loving someone to be alive, love yourself.
Killing yourself won't solve a thing, really. You still have more to live! She wasn't the love of your life, so try again, look for someone else! You may end up having a big surprise... there's no pain that lasts a million years.