I just want to give up...

[Baseman]

Sorry this is going to be a long post, my dad passed away from cancer 9 years ago when I was 8. Now it's just my mom and I, and it probably started a couple years ago she's been yelling at me and I feel bad about it. Cause she says that I hurt her, it seems like it's every other day that she yells at me for doing something "wrong" and I honestly don't know what I'm doing. She yells at me because she thinks that I never think of her and only about my self. But I never buy anything for me, I only make 80-90 dollars a week and 70 of that goes to fill my truck. So I basically have no money left, and in January I gotten into an accident and it just messed up my fender and door so I wanted to save up for new ones and she got all mad. And she got mad because, another time I did a load of wash and didn't put any of her clothes in because I was in a hurry and she got mad at me. Usually when she yells at me she threatens to take my truck keys away, and I can't go on the computer for the rest of the night. So now something happened last night and this is what made me write this post. It's near the end of the school year and I'm failing chemistry right now I've set up arrangements with the teacher to get help after school, and I've just been stressed out because I'm also trying to get my algebra grade up because normally I'm an A/B student. So last night we were cooking dinner and she basically had to pull it it of me because I'm afraid to talk to her cause I don't know how she's going to react. And even if I get a C in a class she'll yell at me and I know that she wants me to to better than her. But I told her that I didn't tell her cause it'd upset her and that I was worried that she'd explode. Because sometimes she'll throw things and break them when she's mad. And she got really mad when I told her that and now she's making me do all of the wash, the dishes, clean. Because she said that she's "sick of my shit" and that she does everything for me and I apparently treat her like shit. That night she also told me that she wished that I'd get a "dead end job like her". And she even threatened to keep me from going to college (I graduate next year). That day made me wish that a semi truck had hit and killed me in that accident instead of a small pickup. Sorry for the long post I'm just confused and wish that I wasn't here any more, I wish that my dad was back here and I lived a normal life. I don't get why she gets mad at me, I obey all the rules, I don't do drugs, I mainly get A's and B's, all the teachers like me, I don't stay out late I come home at a reasonable hour. I just want to give up.

[xXoblivionXx]

Hey Kyle!

First off, I wasted to say sorry about your father, may he rest in peace. Do you think that maybe your mom is still grieving? or that your father's death effected her in a way maybe it didn't effect you? That may be why it seems that she has a short temper, or may be she has a bipolar disorder. It could be a lot of things.

As for chemistry, it's a hard class, I took my final yesterday and I'm pretty sure I failed it. It's a hard class, and I am as well usually an A/B student. so don't take it personally. I know some people who majored in a science but they failed high school chem. It's going to be all right.

As for college, technically once you turn 18 you can do what you want. So you can go to college whether your mom wants you to or not. Personally I think that education is important and that you so always be learning, whether that is in school or after you graduate. The only problem with that is tuition. If your mom doesn't want you to go and you end up going, your not guaranteed that she will pay tuition.

Please don't give up. Life can be hard sometimes, but that's life. It has it's high moments and it's low moments. The thing is you can dwell on the low moments because then you won't get many high moments.

I hope I helped a bit, feel free to PM me whenever if you ever want to talk! :)

[Unknown_one]

I am in tears your mum os just probably depressed herself and doen't know how to deal woth her stress so i advise you the next time she starts yelling and getting mad just walk up and hug her even if she starts cussing worse wait until she has calmed down before you release her. Then whatever she is doing finish it for her then kiss her on the cheek and leave her to get it together.

[TheLoneWolf]

I'm really sorry for you, your situation sucks!
In my opinion your mom doesn't know how to handle stress. You're probably the only person around at that time so she just lets it out on you.
If she gets mad at you for nothing, finish what you're doing, ask if there's anything else she'd like you to do or just leave. Try to show her you do want to help her.
Sometimes the things you do may not be that clear. Mention things like 'Hey, I did the dishes while you were at work' or something like that. Show her the things you do do.

[Baseman]

Thank you all for your advice it's all better now, I'm glad there's people out there like you guys!

[xXoblivionXx]

Thank you all for your advice it's all better now, I'm glad there's people out there like you guys!

that's good to hear! if you ever want to talk about anything feel free leave me a VM