Toasteroven
June 3rd, 2014, 09:09 PM
Hi, so I'm 19, I'm more into boys than girls, and I've never had a proper full relationship, but I have had some good developed friendships which turned sexual.
So, anyway, I started a new job in Nov 2012, I was shy and quiet and kept to myself, from June 2013 one of the checkout supervisors began flirting with me, at the time he was 23. He was pushing me to come and spoon him and spend time with him. He's a lovely guy but I wasn't interested. Anyway, over the summer and through to November 2013 he wore me down, or warmed me up, either way, we started hanging out, spending time together, drives in the car etc. We got close and at the end of December 2013 we went for a walk and he kissed me, we made out and I was so happy and loved it.
Our relationship developed but it was kept casual and we didn't name it or anything, it wasn't exclusive, but neither of us saw anyone else. We progressed to more sexual stuff, he, given his age was more experienced and I had yet to have sex for the first time. We over time kinda fooled about and in Feb we half had sex, won't get into the specifics but I'm not really sure you could count it.
Anyway, this progressed and I was very happy, I for the most part. There where some negative parts though, he thought that there was stuff I needed to change, for example, my hair, I'm not going to lie, it could look better, and it probably would help me, but he kept going on about it and it depressed me.
Anywayyy, he broke things off with me about a month ago, and he said he valued my friendship too much. He said we can still go on drives and hang out, which we do, like 5 nights a week. But there's no more sexual stuff between us.
The reason why this depressed me was because I was literally no more than a week away from telling him that I was in love...
Tonight we where out for a drive and he went on and on about how my hair looked and told me to get it cut as lots of people don't like it and that it sets me back in life. I've booked an appointment, but to be fair, I had one already booked for next week, I just moved it up a bit to tomorrow.
I dunno what to do. I was falling in love with this guy, I wanted to cuddle and love and kiss him all day and all night and then this happens, he tells me he values our friendship wayy more than any silly relationship that we possibly could have.
What I am asking for is some advice, what should I do?
So, anyway, I started a new job in Nov 2012, I was shy and quiet and kept to myself, from June 2013 one of the checkout supervisors began flirting with me, at the time he was 23. He was pushing me to come and spoon him and spend time with him. He's a lovely guy but I wasn't interested. Anyway, over the summer and through to November 2013 he wore me down, or warmed me up, either way, we started hanging out, spending time together, drives in the car etc. We got close and at the end of December 2013 we went for a walk and he kissed me, we made out and I was so happy and loved it.
Our relationship developed but it was kept casual and we didn't name it or anything, it wasn't exclusive, but neither of us saw anyone else. We progressed to more sexual stuff, he, given his age was more experienced and I had yet to have sex for the first time. We over time kinda fooled about and in Feb we half had sex, won't get into the specifics but I'm not really sure you could count it.
Anyway, this progressed and I was very happy, I for the most part. There where some negative parts though, he thought that there was stuff I needed to change, for example, my hair, I'm not going to lie, it could look better, and it probably would help me, but he kept going on about it and it depressed me.
Anywayyy, he broke things off with me about a month ago, and he said he valued my friendship too much. He said we can still go on drives and hang out, which we do, like 5 nights a week. But there's no more sexual stuff between us.
The reason why this depressed me was because I was literally no more than a week away from telling him that I was in love...
Tonight we where out for a drive and he went on and on about how my hair looked and told me to get it cut as lots of people don't like it and that it sets me back in life. I've booked an appointment, but to be fair, I had one already booked for next week, I just moved it up a bit to tomorrow.
I dunno what to do. I was falling in love with this guy, I wanted to cuddle and love and kiss him all day and all night and then this happens, he tells me he values our friendship wayy more than any silly relationship that we possibly could have.
What I am asking for is some advice, what should I do?