monkpart6
March 7th, 2008, 06:41 AM
For the longest time Ive always wanted to smoke pot just to see what its like...that is up until a week and a half ago. Recently I was offered pot and being in the situation i was in I naturally jumped on the chance, told the guy to meet me at my house and we would get baked later that day. The thing is everything hit me at once... everyone had always been telling me not to do pot especially this girl that I had been going out with. She told me not to smoke pot (the week before I was offered pot she told me this...ironic no?) because it would turn me into an asshole. ANYWAY Bottom line is that ever since I turned down that pot well, its like Ive lost my Soul or something. I know this may sound rediculous but before this whole pot thing I used to be this fun, life loving person who made everyone laugh as well as laugh at anything funny. But now it seems as though im a complete zombie. I hardly laugh at anything and just dont seems to be myself. I mean Im going crazy here; I dont know what happened to me, all i want is my personality back and i cant seem to get it! My god i feel like suicide is the only answer but well...i just dont know.
Maybe I have a mental disorder or maybe Im sick? I know I might have been vague in my description and i know this sounds completely wierd but please PLEASE if anyone has any insight they can provide that would be much appreciated.
Maybe I have a mental disorder or maybe Im sick? I know I might have been vague in my description and i know this sounds completely wierd but please PLEASE if anyone has any insight they can provide that would be much appreciated.