pain doesn't bother me

[Hundred Spirited God]

yesterday,me and my friend got into a argument (im not going to get into much details cause of my friends privacy),an hr or two,i apologized and they kept saying harsh things (especially since i threatened her),one of her friends said how i was seflish trying to get their attention with my problems and said the world doesn't revolve around me,and i threatened to kill my self,one of them asked if i was dead yet,so after that fight,i've gave up hope on my self,i gave up hope on me and my girlfriends relationship (she's bipolar) and all the good in my life,so i've been hard on my self,i have these thoughts in my head and i've been calling my self: Ugly,stupid,a demon,evil,etc,i have these thoughts that tell me,if i ever sleep,or im happy,sad and want to cry,and don't think about everyone else's feelings,they would kill me,so last night,i stayed up,but i was tired and i was starting to sleep,i started to cry cause my concious threatened to kill me,but then i dealt with it and i started to get scared,and today,i cut my self,and i set my hand on fire,the second,i blocked out my thoughts and emotions,when i put the lighter up to my hand,i could barely feel anything.

[Miserabilia]

yesterday,me and my friend got into a argument (im not going to get into much details cause of my friends privacy),an hr or two,i apologized and they kept saying harsh things (especially since i threatened her),one of her friends said how i was seflish trying to get their attention with my problems and said the world doesn't revolve around me,and i threatened to kill my self,one of them asked if i was dead yet,so after that fight,i've gave up hope on my self,i gave up hope on me and my girlfriends relationship (she's bipolar) and all the good in my life,so i've been hard on my self,i have these thoughts in my head and i've been calling my self: Ugly,stupid,a demon,evil,etc,i have these thoughts that tell me,if i ever sleep,or im happy,sad and want to cry,and don't think about everyone else's feelings,they would kill me,so last night,i stayed up,but i was tired and i was starting to sleep,i started to cry cause my concious threatened to kill me,but then i dealt with it and i started to get scared,and today,i cut my self,and i set my hand on fire,the second,i blocked out my thoughts and emotions,when i put the lighter up to my hand,i could barely feel anything.

Wow I don't know a proper response to that. ):
It's terrible you were treated that way and that it triggered self hate and harm.

[Hundred Spirited God]

Wow I don't know a proper response to that. ):
It's terrible you were treated that way and that it triggered self hate and harm.

it's funny,i didn't expect anyone to even care

[Miserabilia]

it's funny,i didn't expect anyone to even care

It's not funny though.
I know I care.
I bet lots of people do even when your girlfriend doesn't.

[thatgothgirluknow]

it's funny,i didn't expect anyone to even care

im srry ur having a hard time but u even though she said some things that she shouldnt have that doesnt mean she doesnt care she was probley just mad
dnt take it out on urself just because someone says something doesnt mean its true and if u think it is try to be a better person dont hurt yourself im sure that ur a very good person and dont deserve to hurt like that

[Hundred Spirited God]

It's not funny though.
I know I care.
I bet lots of people do even when your girlfriend doesn't.

thanks :) ,and my girlfriend actually really loved me,after that argument,i told her i was breaking up with cause she deserved better,i didn't think about how much she loved me :( ,she said i broke her,and yesterday,she cut her wrist and it started to bleed,i was worried to death and i started to cry :( ,i was worried i would never see her again,i kept praying to god and i found out she was ok

[Hundred Spirited God]

im srry ur having a hard time but u even though she said some things that she shouldnt have that doesnt mean she doesnt care she was probley just mad
dnt take it out on urself just because someone says something doesnt mean its true and if u think it is try to be a better person dont hurt yourself im sure that ur a very good person and dont deserve to hurt like that

it's ok :) ,and she was mad and upset cause her sobriety was ruined,i kept telling her about god cause i was worried she would end up in hell

[xXl0sth0peXx]

it's funny,i didn't expect anyone to even care

That's why we're here. Because we do care. Every single person here.

There are so many people out there who care for you - you may not even realize. I think your girlfriend is a perfect example of that. If you're ever feeling like no one cares, I care. And hell, everyone here does too.

Please, please don't kill yourself. Your life means something. I really urge you to seek help about the feelings - from a friend, a school counselor, a church pastor, any trusted adult. Self harm won't do any help in the long run.

Keep an eye on your girl too. Make sure she doesn't harm; offer your support in any way you can to her, and just be there for her.

Keep on going, it will get better. x

[Hundred Spirited God]

That's why we're here. Because we do care. Every single person here.

There are so many people out there who care for you - you may not even realize. I think your girlfriend is a perfect example of that. If you're ever feeling like no one cares, I care. And hell, everyone here does too.

Please, please don't kill yourself. Your life means something. I really urge you to seek help about the feelings - from a friend, a school counselor, a church pastor, any trusted adult. Self harm won't do any help in the long run.

Keep an eye on your girl too. Make sure she doesn't harm; offer your support in any way you can to her, and just be there for her.

Keep on going, it will get better. x

thanks,i'll try my best to not kill my self,and i would talk to someone,but the only friend i have is with my brother in another city,i don't go to school,and i would talk to my family but half of them don't care

[Unknown_one]

I son't know exactly when you posted this but i just wanted to say that cheesee is right people really do care and if your friends are small minded enough to be that harsh and encouraged you to resort to self mutilation they don't deserve you. Though if you worked it out with tjem that is absolutely awesome and hope you become better love from unknown_one.

[Unknown_one]

Omg that must have been shocking but am glad she is alive.

[TheLoneWolf]

Good thing you posted it on here, because we do care!
If you don't have friends to talk to talk to someone on VT, they'll help you. Please don't kill nor hurt yourself, because I do care. And I am sure loads of other people care too!

[Ben_Frost]

Harming yourself won't solve anything, even if you don't feel the pain you'll do some serious harm to your body. If they don't want to be friends with you anymore just forget about them, love yourself. Eventually you'll find more people that will be your true friends, and don't think no one cares, everyone posting here is caring about you and looking to help you out. Love yourself, and value yourself.

[Hundred Spirited God]

Thanks everyone :),and i'm blocking her for good so,,