it's like hiding the pain inside... (had a bad day pt.2)

[bbychop]

hopeless love616: hi
Blinkyyyyyyy182: hi
hopeless love616: i suppose krystal told you everything i said
Blinkyyyyyyy182: yeeep
hopeless love616: ok
Blinkyyyyyyy182: ok
hopeless love616: i................................................................love........... .................................................................you
Blinkyyyyyyy182: then why can't you stop being mean
hopeless love616: i can try
hopeless love616: i swear i will try for you ok?
Blinkyyyyyyy182: this one last chance
Blinkyyyyyyy182: I'm not kidding
hopeless love616: i know

[<-Dying_to_Live->]

hes undeserving. he doesnt want you.

[bbychop]

he told krystal he doesn't love me much anymore. i took 2/3 of a bottle of ibuprofen. :( why me?

[bbychop]

now it's 4/5 of the bottle

[<-Dying_to_Live->]

dont. its not worth it. he doesnt want you, and you DONT NEED HIM. you dont, hes a shithead. your a better person than he is. just know that and its not worth ending it all over some stupid dipshit that doesnt care about you. think about all the people who DO care about you, like krystal. how would she felt if you left? how could u do that to her?

[bbychop]

We're talking about that right now and she's trying to get me to stop... and he's sitting there in his own little world. :cry:

[<-Dying_to_Live->]

exactly, he doesnt care. but she does. do it for her, stay for her. she deserves your friendship and you have an obligation to be her companion

[Elokyn]

don't do this to yourself! he's not worth it!! You deserve so much better than this! DONT you dare let him make you believe that you don't!

[bbychop]

I just went on my myspace and apologized for it all on my about me section and explained how I feel about him. I am seriously upset. I am not going to kill myself. I swear but I do hurt.

[<-Dying_to_Live->]

ok. dont kill yourself, kill him instead.

no but really you need to ask yourself why he means so much to you if hes such an uncaring asshole. i think u need to find someone else who will devote themselves to you and treat you with the respect that you deserve

[bbychop]

everyone has told me that tonight. ugh my eyes burn. i think me and him worked it out.. i hope we did.

[bbychop]

hopeless love616: did you read my myspace?
Blinkyyyyyyy182: no
hopeless love616: ok
Blinkyyyyyyy182: grrrr
hopeless love616: what
hopeless love616: what's wrong?
Blinkyyyyyyy182: everything
hopeless love616: :( why do you say that
Blinkyyyyyyy182: just cause
hopeless love616: anything i can do?

[bbychop]

Now he's sitting here telling me some other person wants to fuck him and ugh...

Read this: (it's not Wesley, but it's the next best thing)
rabbit : you should see some of the shit he has said tonight.. i swear i am gonna fuckin' kill him but i don't care
benassi : ok
benassi : :)
rabbit : why the smile? :P
benassi : you had a bad day, be happy
rabbit : heh thanks :hug:

[<-Dying_to_Live->]

its nice that you can feel happy now

[bbychop]

Benassi is always a big help because he never wants me to be hurt again like he hurt me.

[bbychop]

hopeless love616: atleast it's better than us fighting
Blinkyyyyyyy182: much
hopeless love616: i love you
Blinkyyyyyyy182: I'm ganna go play that horse game soon
hopeless love616: lol ok
hopeless love616: have fun
hopeless love616: you can call me if you wanna
Blinkyyyyyyy182: I don't
hopeless love616: i was only saying
Blinkyyyyyyy182: same here
Blinkyyyyyyy182: it gave my ear
Blinkyyyyyyy182: a fuckin rash
hopeless love616: oh... ok.

[Elokyn]

you needa let him go....he's a jerk...

[bbychop]

I know I do. I guess maybe I'm just scared of being alone now. :(

[ScotsGirl]

If he makes you feel anything less than amazing, then he isnt worth it :(

Youre a beautiful person inside and out Ashley, and anyone that makes you think anything different is not worth your time.

Why are you afraid of being alone? :( ...when youre single, it means you have the chance to meet someone who can make you happy :D

xxx

[bbychop]

:hug: Thanks.
I don't know why I am afraid of being alone. :(

[bbychop]

nathan : I say drop him
rabbit : i want to but you know me.. i am scared
rabbit : i am scared of him nathan
nathan : if he harms you actually!, you could be your fucking ass i'll drive my ass done there and ninja kick his face! NO ONE FUCKS WITH MY PRINCESS!


nathan : your probably going through alot of emotional sadness like shit! just end it with that guy, dont give him a chance, even if he's trying to give ya one! Thats not how you treat someone
rabbit : and none of this happened til last night and benassi was trying to get me to feel better cuz i felt dead inside and i was crying and everything (he <<wesley>> hung up on me) and benassi was like "you need a hug" and i was like "why" and he was like "you had a bad day :hug: there ya go" (something to that effect atleast) lol
nathan : thats nice of him
nathan : :hug: yeah you need one
rabbit : thanks
rabbit : i stayed home sick today cuz i was depressed and i have the flu and he didn't even care to ask if i was ok
nathan : just leave him, i'm serious, it will make ya happier! well, maybe not at first, but when you dont have to put up with his shit anymore, it will be fine