TheRedViper
June 1st, 2014, 08:48 AM
Long story short I was best friends with a girl at my school for a year and a half. I had a massive crush on her, and she pretty much knew about it, but didn't care. She had a boyfriend (who was way older than us and didn't go to school) and they had an on-off thing. Just when it seemed like they were over, they got back together. This has happened at least five times.
Even though I was massively in the friendzone, we were still really great friends, and we really trusted each other and cared about each other. She often complained about her boyfriend to me, and said she wished I was her boyfriend instead. On one occasion she even asked if I'd be her rebound if they broke up. She knew and said to me that I'd be better for her than him, but despite this they still stayed together for ages.
So she left my school last year, but we've still kept in contact. She ended up breaking up with her boyfriend, and this lasted for several months. In that time, I actually considered asking her out, and was trying to organize us to catch up so I could ask her, but then in my as usual amazing luck, I found out last week that she got back together with her boyfriend.
I felt crushed, but not exactly surprised. I was talking to her just before on my phone and she told me about it very casually. I didn't have it in me, or think it smart to tell her how I felt. Even though she expressed on several occasions before that she loved me and said we would be good together, I didn't know how she meant it, like as friends or more.
So now I'm just sitting here, sad and disappointed but not surprised. She's the only girl that's ever been a legit friend, and the only girl I ever talked to on a regular basis. Now that she's gone I just don't have anyone like her now. I really miss her, and I'm worried that I won't get a girlfriend until I leave high school at least, since she was the only girl I talked regularly and liked, and none of the other girls at school are interested in me, and vice versa.
Being in the friendzone sucks. She even teases me with comments like "we should have a baby." She literally just said that like half an hour ago. Urgh, I really don't know how her mind works, in regards to me. I keep thinking "there will be other girls I like, and that will be interested in me." But every day this seems less and less likely.
Even though I was massively in the friendzone, we were still really great friends, and we really trusted each other and cared about each other. She often complained about her boyfriend to me, and said she wished I was her boyfriend instead. On one occasion she even asked if I'd be her rebound if they broke up. She knew and said to me that I'd be better for her than him, but despite this they still stayed together for ages.
So she left my school last year, but we've still kept in contact. She ended up breaking up with her boyfriend, and this lasted for several months. In that time, I actually considered asking her out, and was trying to organize us to catch up so I could ask her, but then in my as usual amazing luck, I found out last week that she got back together with her boyfriend.
I felt crushed, but not exactly surprised. I was talking to her just before on my phone and she told me about it very casually. I didn't have it in me, or think it smart to tell her how I felt. Even though she expressed on several occasions before that she loved me and said we would be good together, I didn't know how she meant it, like as friends or more.
So now I'm just sitting here, sad and disappointed but not surprised. She's the only girl that's ever been a legit friend, and the only girl I ever talked to on a regular basis. Now that she's gone I just don't have anyone like her now. I really miss her, and I'm worried that I won't get a girlfriend until I leave high school at least, since she was the only girl I talked regularly and liked, and none of the other girls at school are interested in me, and vice versa.
Being in the friendzone sucks. She even teases me with comments like "we should have a baby." She literally just said that like half an hour ago. Urgh, I really don't know how her mind works, in regards to me. I keep thinking "there will be other girls I like, and that will be interested in me." But every day this seems less and less likely.