borderline personality disorder!

[Hundred Spirited God]

ok,here's what happened,3 weeks ago i was in a relationship with 2 girls,one of them really loved me,and the other was bipolar and i felt bad for her,but i was really confused and scared cause i didn't want to hurt both of them,i broke my heart for the girl that loved me,and she treated our relationship like it was nothing,and that's when i've been acting different,i start drooling,shaking,and i had this really bad urge to bite something,and i've been to the point where i get pist off and start screaming and punching things,and sometimes when theirs loud noises,i'll get really scared and jumpy,and i guess it's cause of 20 different things,my mom died 4 years ago,i keep thinking about demons 24/7,the end of the world,not to mention i've been called a demon,faggot,a freak,etc,and no one has actually put their feelings aside for me,i've been locked up in this house for years,and there's been a few suicide attempts,and my brother use to yell at me back then for me either standing up for someone or screwing up at a video game,i couldn't talk and i was scared to death,so i locked my self up in my parent's room,back then in last january,this girl lied to me and told me she was sick and dying,i really loved her and i was infatuated with her,and i had THREE anxiety attacks

so those are all the bad things that happened,im not sure how many mental disorders i got but i don't really care anymore

[CrazyPerson101]

ok,here's what happened,3 weeks ago i was in a relationship with 2 girls,one of them really loved me,and the other was bipolar and i felt bad for her,but i was really confused and scared cause i didn't want to hurt both of them,i broke my heart for the girl that loved me,and she treated our relationship like it was nothing,and that's when i've been acting different,i start drooling,shaking,and i had this really bad urge to bite something,and i've been to the point where i get pist off and start screaming and punching things,and sometimes when theirs loud noises,i'll get really scared and jumpy,and i guess it's cause of 20 different things,my mom died 4 years ago,i keep thinking about demons 24/7,the end of the world,not to mention i've been called a demon,faggot,a freak,etc,and no one has actually put their feelings aside for me,i've been locked up in this house for years,and there's been a few suicide attempts,and my brother use to yell at me back then for me either standing up for someone or screwing up at a video game,i couldn't talk and i was scared to death,so i locked my self up in my parent's room,back then in last january,this girl lied to me and told me she was sick and dying,i really loved her and i was infatuated with her,and i had THREE anxiety attacks

so those are all the bad things that happened,im not sure how many mental disorders i got but i don't really care anymore

Ok. 1 Sorry about your mother passing , there is NOTHING worse in the world than having your mother pass on.... 2 It sounds like you need to see a therapist about the demons and If you're having suicidal thoughts or actions, you should REALLY talk to someone. ( Feel free to message me if you want to ) Anyway how old are you ? and 3 anxiety attacks ? If I were you , I would try to get as much rest as possible and when it comes to life , try to live it to the fullest. I guess thats all I have for now ( Its 3:31 am in the morning here so im opreating at like 30% )

[Hundred Spirited God]

yea,im not taking my mom's death too well,and i would go see a therapist,but i don't even trust him/her enough,i would talk to someone,but my 2nd sister doesn't care,neither does my dad and 2nd brother,the only ones i have to talk to are my bipolar friend and girlfriend,and sister,whenever i talk to my sister about this,she wants to be a smartass,and as far as my age,i don't like giving out personal information,and i TRY to get some sleep,but i always have nightmares when i sleep,and i sleep for only 2-4 hrs

[CrazyPerson101]

yea,im not taking my mom's death too well,and i would go see a therapist,but i don't even trust him/her enough,i would talk to someone,but my 2nd sister doesn't care,neither does my dad and 2nd brother,the only ones i have to talk to are my bipolar friend and girlfriend,and sister,whenever i talk to my sister about this,she wants to be a smartass,and as far as my age,i don't like giving out personal information,and i TRY to get some sleep,but i always have nightmares when i sleep,and i sleep for only 2-4 hrs


Ahhh ok , Well I can tell you are suffering from depression or at least it seems like it Also ( quote me when you respond cause I almost missed this reply ) Anyway , I completely understand if you don't want to give out any personal info. If you'd like to talk , don't hesitate to PM ANYTIME you want. Also to give you some info about me , My name is Ryan , I am 15 I live in the USA. I that is all the info ill give out to you ( and to anyone else ). Im sorry you think noone cares , If you don't mind my asking , have to sat down with your father and talked to him ? Another thing you're not getting enough sleep. You should go see a therapist so they can help you get through the loss of your mother. I never had a father , My mother body is slowly shutting down ( She has Multiple Sclerosis ) so her nervous system is slowly deteriorating because of her immune system ). Bascailly shes losing the ability to move , and stuff like that , she is always in pain and she is almost blind. She hasn't died ( like your mother ) but she is slowly becomeing well you get my point. If you would like some more info about it , Ill PM it to you. I hope you will be able to get more sleep. Good luck