Denial after being out without a problem for over a year

[Faolan]

I came out as gay last April, and have had close to no problems with bullying. All my friends accept me, and for the most part they don't give a hoot over who I like. But for some reason I am often still in partial denial. Everyone knows I'm gay, but for some reason I'm afraid to accept this part of my identity. I know I like boys, but I feel guilty whenever I think about it too much. Why can't I just accept that I'm gay and move on?

[bob97]

That's silly. You still like you want to and that isn't the problem. I think it'll just take time adjusting? I hope you make peace with who you are. Good luck!!

[Bull]

I feel for you. Having had my own identity crisis to work through I have come to the conclusion that a lot of the feelings I experienced where the result of where I live and the attitude, sermons, news media, homophobic law makers, and on and on. I have been programed to believe anything but hetro is wrong. (but by people who see no problem in being random sexual partners) I am guessing that you have a similar background. I know there are many people that consider my bi curiosity as wrong. But, a growing number of people seem to be accepting of the real world and that different people express there sexuality differently. So we just accept who we are-we can't change that-and move on to enjoy our uniqueness. Best of luck to you. If you have some specific questions, PM me.

[Faolan]

It's not even that I live in a conservative region. On the contrary, everyone is accepting, including myself, but for some bizarre reason I go through phases of self-loathing. It probably just has to do with being a hormonal teenager. It would definitely be easier to be straight, maybe that's why. At the moment I'm more than happy to be gay.