Atonement
March 5th, 2008, 01:43 AM
I chew on the inside of my mouth
Ever since I can remember, when I am nervous and when I am unhappy, I chew my lip. Not like the outside, but the inside of my mouth. I bit and chew until I literally bite of pieces... I bleed sometimes even. I can rarely eat substantially salty foods for it just throws salt in my wounds. It is different than my cutting because to cut, I need to go get a blade. To bite, I just sit there and bite. My mouth's "blades" are always RIGHT there. I do it anywhere, sitting here, even, I could. During class. While driving. While I am trying to sleep even. I guess this could be clasified self harm.
But I dont know how to stop. I have lost feeling in most the inside of my mouth because of this. Almost eight years probably.I cant even think about stopping because it is so familiar and so easy to do and to access. My eyes water during a test. It is very embarressing.I have no clue what to do.
Has anyone even ever heard of someone doing something like this?
Help? Any suggestions at all are welcome.
Ever since I can remember, when I am nervous and when I am unhappy, I chew my lip. Not like the outside, but the inside of my mouth. I bit and chew until I literally bite of pieces... I bleed sometimes even. I can rarely eat substantially salty foods for it just throws salt in my wounds. It is different than my cutting because to cut, I need to go get a blade. To bite, I just sit there and bite. My mouth's "blades" are always RIGHT there. I do it anywhere, sitting here, even, I could. During class. While driving. While I am trying to sleep even. I guess this could be clasified self harm.
But I dont know how to stop. I have lost feeling in most the inside of my mouth because of this. Almost eight years probably.I cant even think about stopping because it is so familiar and so easy to do and to access. My eyes water during a test. It is very embarressing.I have no clue what to do.
Has anyone even ever heard of someone doing something like this?
Help? Any suggestions at all are welcome.