Star Wolf
May 19th, 2014, 01:42 AM
I'm at a loss. Every freaking week I go over, my father brings up his business problems. He verbally abuses my grandma all the time, blaming her and us for everything and as a result, she drinks too much.
Today he was screaming again, so my little sister and I went in the office, and we have suspected he was bipolar for a while, but finally researched it today on the computer, and he literally fit every symptom. A text book case of it.
I'm tired of him verbally abusing us, and following us around screaming. He flips out at the slightest tremor, and it's so cutting. He acts like such a victim guilt-tripping and blaming everyone else, acting like people owe him, and he's saying I don't appreciate him, and that I don't care about him, and that I'm apathetic.
And he's a pathological liar. he makes up stuff that isn't true and tricks himself into believing it.
You know what, I've forgiven him for his abuse too many times, and he always does it again. Maybe I don't feel anything towards him anymore. Maybe I'm just numb, because he's never been my father, he's just been a doofus, and he's never really cared about what I'm feeling or anyone else.
And my mom and father have been divorced for a long time, but I still don't forgive him for cheating on her when he went to Japan, because he still makes up lies about her all the time that she cheated on him, and that my little sister's mother cheated on him(half-sister), and that every freaking girlfriend he's had has cheated on his lying arse.
And he always says inappropriate stuff in public just to humiliate me, like at the library he kept making incest and S&M jokes really loud, and I was so embarrassed I wanted to cry.
What do I do to stop him from yelling at us? It's not like I can get him to take go to a doctor or even recognize he has a problem, because to him, it's never his fault, always someone else fault. I'm so tired of it. It makes me shake to even hear it anymore.
Today he was screaming again, so my little sister and I went in the office, and we have suspected he was bipolar for a while, but finally researched it today on the computer, and he literally fit every symptom. A text book case of it.
I'm tired of him verbally abusing us, and following us around screaming. He flips out at the slightest tremor, and it's so cutting. He acts like such a victim guilt-tripping and blaming everyone else, acting like people owe him, and he's saying I don't appreciate him, and that I don't care about him, and that I'm apathetic.
And he's a pathological liar. he makes up stuff that isn't true and tricks himself into believing it.
You know what, I've forgiven him for his abuse too many times, and he always does it again. Maybe I don't feel anything towards him anymore. Maybe I'm just numb, because he's never been my father, he's just been a doofus, and he's never really cared about what I'm feeling or anyone else.
And my mom and father have been divorced for a long time, but I still don't forgive him for cheating on her when he went to Japan, because he still makes up lies about her all the time that she cheated on him, and that my little sister's mother cheated on him(half-sister), and that every freaking girlfriend he's had has cheated on his lying arse.
And he always says inappropriate stuff in public just to humiliate me, like at the library he kept making incest and S&M jokes really loud, and I was so embarrassed I wanted to cry.
What do I do to stop him from yelling at us? It's not like I can get him to take go to a doctor or even recognize he has a problem, because to him, it's never his fault, always someone else fault. I'm so tired of it. It makes me shake to even hear it anymore.