I cant believe what i have done

[kaydencorey]

I'm at school just now pretending to study and writing this because I'm in a little bit of a difficult situation, let me explain.
Probably been said here numerous times but I've had a huge crush on my best friend for a couple of years.
Maybe more like an obsession I think everything he does is cute, he always says the right thing, looks hot beyond belief he really is gorgeous.
We have been very good friends since we were 9.
I've always been very affectionate with him more so from about 11 onwards and he's never minded, he actually returns the affection a lot, even now that we are a bit older.
It's been torture being with him and not telling how I feel about him now, I give him hugs as often as I can just to be close to him and I'm in heaven when he hugs me back.
I don't know how I got into this mess because it happened before I knew what I was doing.
We were doing some studying and having a laugh and play fighting like we do a lot and I just sort of jumped him and kissed him full on the lips I shocked myself a bit I don't know how I got the nerve to do that. :confused:
He looked embarrassed, a bit confused and didn't say a word but just stared at me, we were very uncomfortable with each other till he went home an hour later, but before he went he gave me a hug a long hug, and said, you know I love you too, and left.
I texted him quite a few times that evening and got no reply, at school today he has been hanging around with some other friends and not talking to me.
He hasn't even looked at me.
I could just cry my eyes out just now but that would be so embarrassing as I'm at school.
I don't know how to fix this and I don't know what he thinks of me now. :(

[Dalcourt]

I think most important now is to just calm yourself and be patient. He will show you some reaction sooner or later...it must be kind of a shock for him, give him time to sort out his thoughts and feelings. Don't pressure him too much...

[Living For Love]

He might just be a bit shocked, or he was probably not ready for such a step. I doesn't mean he's not interested in you, we don't know that yet, but I guess he was taken by surprise. Don't blame it on yourself, though. Just give him some time, he'll probably contact you sooner or later.

[Hudor]

Give him some time. Your friendship would probably take a while to return to normalcy. But it seems like he cares about your feelings at least as a good friend would because even in the shock he must have sensed your own discomfort over what you did and hence I guess the hug-probably to ease your mind.
He will definitely need time and space to figure out his feelings so let him be and try not to nag him.

[jjlewis]

he told u he loves u, he must be gay, tell him how much u like him

[Chrisscotland]

I guess maybe he was surprised u did that if he wasn't expecting it he would have got a shock, hes prob a bit embarrassed about it, but if he gave u a hug after that happened and said he loves u he isn't holding it against u, maybe he feels the same but scared to admit it. give him a wee bit of time and them have a talk about it

[Soccertees]

You probably just couldn't help yourself if you like him a lot im a bit scared I do something like that with my friend if its on your mind it could just happen by mistake.

[beenthere]

Don't rush it now, he definitely let you know he understands you and loves you, but at some point you guys need to have a one on one conversation. He knows that too, and he is probably nervous about it. He may love you more like a brother, but who knows, accept his love wether as a brother or boyfriend. But if you talk good and he is interested, then let him move at his own speed, he might be very nervous about being labeled as gay.

[Pierce]

I would interpret that last hug and sentence "You know I love you too" as him knowing your gay and telling you then he loves you even if hes not. I think he needs some time to think it over. He told you that he loved you to let you know he does care, but he needs time alone to think. Give him the time he needs and hopefully you can be friends again. Best of Luck!

[Rocketsnail]

You know, I wish I was brave enough to do what you did... Like Dance in the Dark said, he was probably overwhelmed by such a step. But he did say afterwards that he loved you, so clearly he has feelings for you. I would probably leave him to his own devices for a bit, but eventually, maybe confront him about it?

[thatgothgirluknow]

relax by the way he acted he was probley just surprised even in a relationship allot of times that happens he most likey thinks of u the same way he did before

[Gamma Male]

Just give him some time to sort things out and when you're ready, go talk to him and ask him what he meant by what he said. Does he love you as a friend, or romantically? If he says as a friend, well, there's not really much you can do about that. But you can still hang out together and be friends. If he meant to say that he was gay and had feelings for you... good luck.;)

[Elliott_hn]

is he gay?

[kaydencorey]

Yes i'm gay, i know he needs time over this, that i can understand but im so scared things will forever be akward between us, thats if he ever speaks to me again. :(
Its killing me, thats hes still ignoring me, i just want to have a chat with him and see how he feels but its just not happening and i dont have a clue what to do about it. :(

[Plane And Simple]

You just have to wait. Don't push it or stuff may end up worse than if you just wait. Give him time

[RavleIncarnate]

Give him some time to sort out himself. He would be shocked by such sudden and powerful act of affection, and didn't know how to react to it. If he's your best friend, he should understand how you feel.

[ATOMICskittles]

I'm at school just now pretending to study and writing this because I'm in a little bit of a difficult situation, let me explain.
Probably been said here numerous times but I've had a huge crush on my best friend for a couple of years.
Maybe more like an obsession I think everything he does is cute, he always says the right thing, looks hot beyond belief he really is gorgeous.
We have been very good friends since we were 9.
I've always been very affectionate with him more so from about 11 onwards and he's never minded, he actually returns the affection a lot, even now that we are a bit older.
It's been torture being with him and not telling how I feel about him now, I give him hugs as often as I can just to be close to him and I'm in heaven when he hugs me back.
I don't know how I got into this mess because it happened before I knew what I was doing.
We were doing some studying and having a laugh and play fighting like we do a lot and I just sort of jumped him and kissed him full on the lips I shocked myself a bit I don't know how I got the nerve to do that. :confused:
He looked embarrassed, a bit confused and didn't say a word but just stared at me, we were very uncomfortable with each other till he went home an hour later, but before he went he gave me a hug a long hug, and said, you know I love you too, and left.
I texted him quite a few times that evening and got no reply, at school today he has been hanging around with some other friends and not talking to me.
He hasn't even looked at me.
I could just cry my eyes out just now but that would be so embarrassing as I'm at school.
I don't know how to fix this and I don't know what he thinks of me now. :(

I knew how feel, with that obsessed feeling. I like someone and in my eyes no matter how much of a cocky asshole he is, everything he does and says are perfect. I think the person you are talking about might just be gay too. For him to come back and log hug you later saying that he also loves you means something, something huge. You should really try to communicate to him, make yourself look desperate to him I order for him to talk to you. Honestly, in would go to his house or him come to yours, and go to your room and privately talk it over. I think he wants you back as much as you want him. I hope all goes well, however you approach this situation.