I feel like an attention seeker sometimes.

[Croconaw]

I'm not necessarily depressed, but I'm awfully negative at times. Sometimes I get offended too easily and I make a big deal out of it. I'm not screaming and telling the entire world, but I simply keep things to myself. If I have a situation, and I feel bad about it, I think about it for at least three days. I sometimes say to myself that I'm going to commit suicide, even if I could never go through with it. Personally, I would never go through with it despite how many times I've said it to myself. When something bad happens and it involves me, I always think how how much better their life would be if I wasn't around. However, I would not actually take my life. It just doesn't seem like something that would be worth it. The worst I have done in these situations was cry for nearly fifteen minutes. I know it doesn't sound like a big deal, but the problems I have been experiencing should not even be called problems.

One time we were coming home from my karate class, and I accidentally shut the door a little too loud. It was unintentional. I guess I just shut it too fast and the door vibrated. My dad slapped me and told me not to slam things. I thought the fact that he slapped me was a bit extreme, even if I did block it. I know this was unnecessary, but I proceeded to slap him back and he kept retaliating. I was blocking the slaps so he just gave up. Out of nowhere, I started crying. The crying wasn't loud, as I tried to keep it to myself. I don't really think my dad noticed I was crying. I just feel bad that I felt the need to cry over something as stupid as this. It later occurred to me that I was doing it for attention. I don't really know if this would be considered attention seeking because I honestly have no idea if I am.

I've also managed to cry in other stupid situations. A few years ago when someone called me stupid and told me I couldn't jump over more than five pads, I got really angry at them. I proved them wrong because I jumped over six pads, but I was still secretly crying when he told me this. I wouldn't really cry out in public. That would be too embarrassing for me. My anger was unnecessary because the kid who told me that was seven years old. He was immature, and I feel bad for crying over something a little kid told me. I don't make my crying noticeable because I don't want people to know that I'm a sensitive person.

I'm not really sure what I'm asking advice on, to be honest. Does anyone else feel the same way? :(

[maddogmj77]

I sometimes feel that I cut for attention. Even though I try to hide it a LOT, and am very self-conscious, about ANYONE seeing them. When I actually cut, I'm not thinking about any kind of attention I want or anything. But, afterwards, I feel like I'm just doing this all for attention, which isn't really true. I also feel like other people think I do it for attention, which pisses me off. Even though nobody has even said that, or implied it.

[Croconaw]

I sometimes feel that I cut for attention. Even though I try to hide it a LOT, and am very self-conscious, about ANYONE seeing them. When I actually cut, I'm not thinking about any kind of attention I want or anything. But, afterwards, I feel like I'm just doing this all for attention, which isn't really true. I also feel like other people think I do it for attention, which pisses me off. Even though nobody has even said that, or implied it.I can see where you're coming from. Nobody has actually told me that I'm doing it for attention either. It just depresses me because of the thought of people thinking I do. I don't really know why I think that. I sometimes assume things that aren't really true.

[maddogmj77]

I can see where you're coming from. Nobody has actually told me that I'm doing it for attention either. It just depresses me because of the thought of people thinking I do. I don't really know why I think that. I sometimes assume things that aren't really true.

Yeah, it annoys me. I honestly think people think I'm an attention seeker, which makes me either mad or sad, and that makes me think that I really am an attention seeker, so I get even more either angier or sadder. Then I try to reassure myself I'm not just seeking attention, which makes me feel like a liar, and only makes everything worse. I have like battles with myself in my head, over whether or not I'm a liar or an attention seeker. Then I realize I'm having these conversations in my head, and then I think I'm crazy, which only starts another battle with myself in my head. It really just kinda snowballs from the tiniest things.

Also, sometimes I'll accidently have these conversations out loud, and then I just think I'm fucking insane.

[Croconaw]

I think I'm insane just by thinking this. I just wanted others' opinions on this. :P

[maddogmj77]

well, I mean, It's normal I guess. I do it. You just need to remember that you're not just an attention seeker :)

[Croconaw]

I cried again today because I skipped school just so I didn't have to deal with this bully. I feel so weak sometimes.

[ValentinClarke]

You can either look at being weak as a guman fault that is in everyone. Everyone needs some attention. Thats whats helped me to bloom so well. My education increase with more attention and more attenetion increase my eduatuon usw. Just take a deep breath. Then ignore those thoughts.
Hope this helps Ferialigtr,
Dein Moistman

[backjruton]

One of my friends in college would be more annoying in that aspect. It's really easy to tell he has ADHD because he seems to be so hyper all the time. I've slightly joined in on it too; he's been throwing things across the classroom to attract the attention of 2 of our classmates (a boy and a girl), calling them names and shouting. I keep throwing things at my brother to catch his attention and in a way I like seeing him get hurt so for example earlier he was lying down, I threw my old phone at him and it hit him in the stomach. I did that just to hear him scream. I think of that as attention seeking but I also just love violence when I'm not the victim (:lol:) and I also like attention.

Slapping you for slamming the door a "little bit" IS too extreme; as I've said to some people on here, I don't have any idea how slapping someone is helping them to learn how to behave. That's abusive, there are other ways to deal with what you're not happy with.. although I myself seem to be yet to learn them for home... and I've thought the same things a lot too. I used to have thoughts that my mum once called me brain-dead and said a lot of other mean things to and about me, I hated her up until a year ago, and I'm still facing repercussions from what happened to me in school with that one dickhead who betrayed me yet I'm the one who actually caused it. He shouldn't have uploaded the video but it's my fault for letting him take it in the first place, but I over reacted and now I can't stop that feeling. This is why I don't want to trust anyone, he was a cunt and there was more to it that I'm just not remembering. I fell out with a lot of other friends at that time although they were trying to tell me that this guy was bad and I just wasn't listening to it.

My brother calls me an attention seeker sometimes, no one in college has ever said it but sometimes I bet they're thinking it inside. Surely everyone's an attention seeker in their own way, and there's not much we can do to stop that if anything...

[Dalcourt]

Well, I guess it's just normal to want attention now and then this doesn't necessarily make you an attention seeker imo.
If nobody really said anything, why worry?

There are so many attention seekers out there, to me you really don't sound like one of them.

[Croconaw]

Thanks everyone! That makes me feel better. I thought I was attention seeking because I always cried at the dumbest things.