i have a problem.

[dinger]

well i have a new boyfriend.
and when i say new i mean like 3 weeks. any ways.
he keeps pushing me to go out for dinner with him.
and i am always like nah lets do this or something.
but he wont drop it, and leave it. he wants to do something special for me.
see the thing is he doesn know about my eating disordas.
he just thinks i get sick alot.

but any way,
what do i do so he will drop it.
i dont want to tell him.
because he might be like ohhh this chick has some serious issues.

what do i do!

[sin.city_chris17.x]

i think if you want to have a healthy relationship with him and you trust him you should tell him about your disorder and if he really like you he'll help you, not tell anyone, and still like you the same way

[Atonement]

You really cant hide it forever. You will have to tell him sometimes I presume. Or... you could just go out to dinner and eat.

[dinger]

so what.
i have to tell him.
but i am so scared.
what if i tell him but he doesnt break up with me or what ever.
but then he acts weird around me or something.

i cant go out for dinner. i cant eat sorry.
orrrr... unless i do go out and eat then i can just "get rid" of it i supose.
but i really dont want to.

but yeah i agree. he is going to find out sooner or later. and think that something is up.
but i would rather it be later.

[dinger]

i think i have hit rock bottom.
i have found a new low.
i havnt told any one this, not my boyfriend no one.

these last couple of week i have been feeling like a different person.
i am just constantly thinking about putting on weight and everything like that.

and yesterday i didnt eat anything. (i havnt for about 11 days now) but i made myself vomit 13 times!

what is wrong with me?

[Zephyr]

Hun, do you have any sub-conscious issues that may be causing this?

[dinger]

sub-conscious??

[steven]

things that eat you at the back of your mind... have you got any thing in your past that is related to this? meybe you should spend some time thinking about what has happened in your life that may have coused you to change so suddenly, if you cant think of anything, just meybe ask your parents what you used to be like in your past, but in the meantime, try your hardest to eat something, even if it is just something little, try your hardest to eat it and not to be sick, if you want to go back to when you was eating, then it will take quite abit of time and effort, and you will need some support from your friends and family

hope this helps

Steve

[dinger]

see but thats the thing.
i have no idea why i have been like this. and for so long.
i am mentally in the head.

i cant help it.
i dont want to be fat. i want to loose weight. and i cant help but be sick. i have already done it twice today and its only 4.25.

it only seems to be getting worse and worse.