Out of control

[Evanescent14]

Do any of you feel like your self harm has got completely out of control.
As if its something that has a life of its own and controls you, to the point where you cant fight it anymore.
I'm exhausted trying to now there's no point :(

[RavleIncarnate]

Then throw away every razor/ sharp thing you use, so that it has no weapons to fight with anymore, but you still have a mind.

[Evanescent14]

If only it was that easy...

[Chrisscotland]

I understand it just takes over and its the only thing in my head sometimes i try not to do it but the urge is soooo strong, then when I end up doing it I think, ok, just one cut and then before I know it ive got lots

[maddogmj77]

I don't necessarily feel like it something that has taken over my life, yet. But definitely taken over my mind. I'll argue with myself in my head about whether or not I should hurt myself. Sometimes I have these conversations out loud accidentally(I'M NOT CRAZY, SHUT UP!!!) but luckily they have only been when I am alone at home. But, that doesn't mean that's the only place I think about, I think about it ALL the time EVERYWHERE I go. I try not to think about it, but it just doesn't wanna go away. So, I try to preoccupy myself, but I have to be VERY concentrated on what I am doing, in order for the thoughts to go away.

[xXl0sth0peXx]

I don't necessarily feel like it something that has taken over my life, yet.

I couldn't have said it better myself. I agree with this. I don't think it's taken over my life yet, but it sure as fuck has taken over my mind. The thoughts, the thinking, everything. And they're almost always there, even if I'm at a happy place.

So as an answer to your question, no it hasn't taken over my life, but it has taken over my mind, and I absolutely understand what you mean. Throwing away all sharp objects may be the hardest thing you do but it will be one of the best.

Feel free to drop me a PM if you ever need to talk x

[Babs]

I don't remember feeling that way very well. Not recently, as in after I started again after 10 months clean. Before then, I don't really remember how I felt. Maybe I felt that way.
It's not easy to quit, believe me. Around the 8 month clean point I thought I was done. I thought to myself, "Hey, I won!" but here I am.
I suggest you throw away your blades. Tear them to pieces if you can. (like if they're razor blades) and try your hardest to stop.