IDK what to do anymore :help:

[danny16_]

If you read( "my story " )you will understand more.

I can't take it my head pounds while I look at the dark sky. I tear like its raining out. I can't take my mom saying I'm the devil or saying I should have never been born. So much more in my mind. Now a new thing started up.
Apparently I went outside to my Zach house (best friend/crush) then we went to go play basketball outside with other people. There is this kid named Jimmy and I felt to lazy to play basketball that day so I watched Zach play. Jimmy ( I think he 7 or 8) comes to me and says what I was doing on my phone. I just said " nothing relaxing" well of course I looked up to see everybody stop playing and looking at me. I heard somebody say " stop that gay shit, wtf wrong with these homos"

I'm shocked and don't know how to respond to that. I said " just cause im talking to a kid does not make me a pedo. So that means if I brought a little girl here you would be flirting with her if you just talked"

Its like they ignored what I said. I come home depressed and come to my home to where I get yelled at none-stop. I like to play video games, it calms me and makes me forget about the world. My brother broke my ps3 when I was playing and he throw it and smashed it. I have a ps4 thank god though.

My depression has been showing on my grades. I'm officially failing most of my classes with 2 weeks left. My mom found out and I'm retarted and dumb. :cry: Everybody calls me stupid.

People say it gets better later . It does to people who can live after they left their parents and have a home by their selves but I'm going get kicked out with no support and no money. I be a bum looking for money no matter what. I be worse and I wish life my life gave me a fucking chance. Being robbed at gunpoint , getting beat up for anything, Everybody that cared for me is gone fucking gone :cry:

I love to write on here as I don't feel alone. I don't want the attention , I just want to meet people everyday and laugh ( even through the computer) I don't want to argue to who life is more shit. I just want friends :cry:

[Living For Love]

Doesn't your mother do anything about your brother? Treating you like that, breaking your stuff, beating you up? I don't really know what to say, reading this and the other story you posted brought tears to my eyes. If you really trust Zach, that friend of yours, just stay close to him, ask him for advice and help. And you should focus a bit on your studies. I know it's hard with all that environment, but if you could just get a job quickly, you could make yourself a bit more independent, and that would be good. Try to remember the good things you have in life, other family members who would be sad if you were gone. Please don't do anything rash, it won't solve your problems. You're important, you're wanted and needed, no matter what other people say. I'm always here if you want to talk. :)

[Dalcourt]

If you read( "my story " )you will understand more.

I can't take it my head pounds while I look at the dark sky. I tear like its raining out. I can't take my mom saying I'm the devil or saying I should have never been born. So much more in my mind. Now a new thing started up.
Apparently I went outside to my Zach house (best friend/crush) then we went to go play basketball outside with other people. There is this kid named Jimmy and I felt to lazy to play basketball that day so I watched Zach play. Jimmy ( I think he 7 or 8) comes to me and says what I was doing on my phone. I just said " nothing relaxing" well of course I looked up to see everybody stop playing and looking at me. I heard somebody say " stop that gay shit, wtf wrong with these homos"

I'm shocked and don't know how to respond to that. I said " just cause im talking to a kid does not make me a pedo. So that means if I brought a little girl here you would be flirting with her if you just talked"

Its like they ignored what I said. I come home depressed and come to my home to where I get yelled at none-stop. I like to play video games, it calms me and makes me forget about the world. My brother broke my ps3 when I was playing and he throw it and smashed it. I have a ps4 thank god though.

My depression has been showing on my grades. I'm officially failing most of my classes with 2 weeks left. My mom found out and I'm retarted and dumb. :cry: Everybody calls me stupid.

People say it gets better later . It does to people who can live after they left their parents and have a home by their selves but I'm going get kicked out with no support and no money. I be a bum looking for money no matter what. I be worse and I wish life my life gave me a fucking chance. Being robbed at gunpoint , getting beat up for anything, Everybody that cared for me is gone fucking gone :cry:

I love to write on here as I don't feel alone. I don't want the attention , I just want to meet people everyday and laugh ( even through the computer) I don't want to argue to who life is more shit. I just want friends :cry:

Winston Churchill once said: If you're going through hell, keep going. I learnt this during a history class and made this my motto.

You see my whole life's just been shit. Drug addicts as parents, foster homes, sexual and physical abuse and so on, but I just chose not to give up and keep going.

Never give up, it will get better eventually...and even if not, it is your life don't let others bring you down. There's so much love, happiness and beauty out there for everyone and you will find your good things too one day belive me...that's what keeps me going :)

PS: I'm always willing to listen if you wanna talk, just give me a holler.