My sad story:/

[danny16_]

:(Hello my name is Daniel and I'm 16 now. I hate to tell anyone my story in person and I get very depressed from thinking of it. Not the worst in the world I know but its bad enough to where I want to end it. Sorry if its long:/

I can remember up to the age of 5. At this point of my life as 5 I was sacred. My dad was a drunk and beat my mom. I remember coming home with him once at 5 and he bought me chips but I fell and hit my forehead on the wall resulting in dropping the chips. We got home and I ran knowing he was mad. He chased me and pulled my hair back and chocked my neck saying don't do it again or else. I didn't want to know want the or else was. My dog was my angel to me, my stress reliever. I would sleep with him and wonder of the world. Then my mom filed a divorce. This lawyer lady kept asking me all this questions saying and putting me under pressure. Well that day is when hell struck me. I went with my mom to a cousin house. I loved it there for GTA Vise city. This time though my mom was leaving me there with my cousin. Well he raped me not once but 3 times while I was 5. Once with a friend. Anyways at school I was called retarted and pushed around. I was then put in special ed. I then was being more bullied. My brother brought me to his friend house once but his friend had a brother . We knew each other a bit. One day I got there and was raped once again . Next day at school I attempted suicide at the age of 5 thinking maybe I be free of this. I was considered crazy and had to do a lot of things after that , that I don't want to explain.

Things seem to lighten up though. Even though I failed the 1st grade. I lived in New York at the time but when 4th grade came I moved to Georgia. I was scared and shy. I meet my best friends Zach and Amer. I was the weird kid once again. I tried to be different , I really did but I guess I was retarted. Kids did not like me at all no matter what I did. My mom met this baseball coach though and he started helping pay the house cause my mom was struggling. He took me to the coolest places and treated me as if I was his son. Zach and amer made everything feel so right and as if I was happy and smiling again. Hell really hit in middle school.

My mom turned into the sweetest lady to someone that yells at me everyday and saying I was a mistake. She would say she should of got a abortion. This really hurt me as I loved her so dearly. She would kick me out. I meet my other best friend Micah. We were so cool it was crazy. Anyways back to the house. My brother moved out the one I really loved. Then my nightmare came to me . I started looking at guys instead of girls. Zach would blush over a girl while he doesn't know my crush for him begin to grew. I fell in love with Zach in my head. I knew though I would be hated for being gay since I'm Hispanic. I didn't have the slightest clue to tell anyone. I didn't have no signs of being gay. I remember I was looking up gay teen on the computer when all of the sudden of brother Andy the oldest ( not the one I love) came to me , picked me up and slammed my back and head to the floor. I was in huge pain. I couldn't take the damn abuse anymore. I had a outbreak in 7th grade. Cursing out teacher, almost fighting a teacher , fighting students ,walking out of the classroom. The rage it felt so good honestly it felt amazing. Punching a student face in. This kept helping till 9th grade. Between 8th grade and 9th grade (summer) I came out the closet. I heard family hate me. My mom demanded me to take it down my Facebook. I declined. My brother I loved started calling me a faggot. This made me feel as no one loves cause of this cause the way I feel towards someone. Anyways Towards the 8th grade summer my brother I love came back but different. Now things have changed.

He was mad one day and I was worried cause I don't get mad to the people I really love. He was yelling to my mom and said " YOUR BUM ASS KID IS A BITCH. HE A LOSER , HE DONT DO SHIT." Hearing this from him made my heart stop , why me. He came up to me and smashed the side of my head to the wall and slapped me. I was shocked , WHY HIM. Another day he beat me till where I made marks and bruises all over my face . It looked like a car was dragging me on a highway. I started getting depressed again. Thank god I had my stress reliever, my dog. Which ended 9th grade on Sept. I cried for so long. Then my best friend Micah stopped being friends with me. I forgot to say I was being sexually assaulted by that baseball coach since 7th grade. I couldn't take it again. I was no longer mean me , it was sad me but happy on the outside. I attempted this year and took a lot of pills the day my brother beat me up again to where I looked like I was dragged from the highway. I thought I would die , I really did. I didn't though , I'm here typing this.

I hate to think like this everyday, death........
Sounds so peaceful to me now.
But I also learned even though life is a bitch don't let it overcome you. After the attempt , I got the rage back. I'm not a asshole to people , I would never. I'm the asshole towards the real assholes. Don't do the mistakes I did by attempt. Be stronger then me.

I'm so sorry its long so I made sure I didn't put everything down to shorten the text and for personal reasons also I know your not going to read a whole story. I didn't share my story for attention cause if I wanted attention I would have put it on my Facebook. I just wanted to share my story for some reason :/

Thank you for taking your precious time for reading this.

[Dalcourt]

Thanks for sharing your story with us, that's all I can say at the moment. Maybe I make a better comment later.

[ECSTASY]

i read the whole text :(
ah im really sry causeof the things happened to you :(
don't do any stupid things bro , i kept having suicidal thoughts every minute of my life till last month ,i know , life's a bitch but we should keep fighting :(

[Fanta_Lover44]

Wow, i'm really sorry about whats happened. It sounds like you've had some tough years, you just got to keep your head up and keep fighting. It may unlikely, but one day it will get better. I'm here if you need someone to talk to.

[Baileyy]

Hello Daniel.

Thank you for sharing, I believe that you are an extremely strong individual. But know that death is never the answer out of any situation sir, keep fighting for yourself and things will get better.

You see it get said all the time, but it will get better. Really, it will.

Just remain strong, after reading your story you clearly have a strong will to push on, and I'm proud of you for that brother, keep on keeping on.

Message me if you want to talk to me, Daniel.
Thanks for sharing, again.

All the best,
Bailey :)

[RavleIncarnate]

:(Hello my name is Daniel and I'm 16 now. I hate to tell anyone my story in person and I get very depressed from thinking of it. Not the worst in the world I know but its bad enough to where I want to end it. Sorry if its long:/

I can remember up to the age of 5. At this point of my life as 5 I was sacred. My dad was a drunk and beat my mom. I remember coming home with him once at 5 and he bought me chips but I fell and hit my forehead on the wall resulting in dropping the chips. We got home and I ran knowing he was mad. He chased me and pulled my hair back and chocked my neck saying don't do it again or else. I didn't want to know want the or else was. My dog was my angel to me, my stress reliever. I would sleep with him and wonder of the world. Then my mom filed a divorce. This lawyer lady kept asking me all this questions saying and putting me under pressure. Well that day is when hell struck me. I went with my mom to a cousin house. I loved it there for GTA Vise city. This time though my mom was leaving me there with my cousin. Well he raped me not once but 3 times while I was 5. Once with a friend. Anyways at school I was called retarted and pushed around. I was then put in special ed. I then was being more bullied. My brother brought me to his friend house once but his friend had a brother . We knew each other a bit. One day I got there and was raped once again . Next day at school I attempted suicide at the age of 5 thinking maybe I be free of this. I was considered crazy and had to do a lot of things after that , that I don't want to explain.

Things seem to lighten up though. Even though I failed the 1st grade. I lived in New York at the time but when 4th grade came I moved to Georgia. I was scared and shy. I meet my best friends Zach and Amer. I was the weird kid once again. I tried to be different , I really did but I guess I was retarted. Kids did not like me at all no matter what I did. My mom met this baseball coach though and he started helping pay the house cause my mom was struggling. He took me to the coolest places and treated me as if I was his son. Zach and amer made everything feel so right and as if I was happy and smiling again. Hell really hit in middle school.

My mom turned into the sweetest lady to someone that yells at me everyday and saying I was a mistake. She would say she should of got a abortion. This really hurt me as I loved her so dearly. She would kick me out. I meet my other best friend Micah. We were so cool it was crazy. Anyways back to the house. My brother moved out the one I really loved. Then my nightmare came to me . I started looking at guys instead of girls. Zach would blush over a girl while he doesn't know my crush for him begin to grew. I fell in love with Zach in my head. I knew though I would be hated for being gay since I'm Hispanic. I didn't have the slightest clue to tell anyone. I didn't have no signs of being gay. I remember I was looking up gay teen on the computer when all of the sudden of brother Andy the oldest ( not the one I love) came to me , picked me up and slammed my back and head to the floor. I was in huge pain. I couldn't take the damn abuse anymore. I had a outbreak in 7th grade. Cursing out teacher, almost fighting a teacher , fighting students ,walking out of the classroom. The rage it felt so good honestly it felt amazing. Punching a student face in. This kept helping till 9th grade. Between 8th grade and 9th grade (summer) I came out the closet. I heard family hate me. My mom demanded me to take it down my Facebook. I declined. My brother I loved started calling me a faggot. This made me feel as no one loves cause of this cause the way I feel towards someone. Anyways Towards the 8th grade summer my brother I love came back but different. Now things have changed.

He was mad one day and I was worried cause I don't get mad to the people I really love. He was yelling to my mom and said " YOUR BUM ASS KID IS A BITCH. HE A LOSER , HE DONT DO SHIT." Hearing this from him made my heart stop , why me. He came up to me and smashed the side of my head to the wall and slapped me. I was shocked , WHY HIM. Another day he beat me till where I made marks and bruises all over my face . It looked like a car was dragging me on a highway. I started getting depressed again. Thank god I had my stress reliever, my dog. Which ended 9th grade on Sept. I cried for so long. Then my best friend Micah stopped being friends with me. I forgot to say I was being sexually assaulted by that baseball coach since 7th grade. I couldn't take it again. I was no longer mean me , it was sad me but happy on the outside. I attempted this year and took a lot of pills the day my brother beat me up again to where I looked like I was dragged from the highway. I thought I would die , I really did. I didn't though , I'm here typing this.

I hate to think like this everyday, death........
Sounds so peaceful to me now.
But I also learned even though life is a bitch don't let it overcome you. After the attempt , I got the rage back. I'm not a asshole to people , I would never. I'm the asshole towards the real assholes. Don't do the mistakes I did by attempt. Be stronger then me.

I'm so sorry its long so I made sure I didn't put everything down to shorten the text and for personal reasons also I know your not going to read a whole story. I didn't share my story for attention cause if I wanted attention I would have put it on my Facebook. I just wanted to share my story for some reason :/

Thank you for taking your precious time for reading this.

Wow. Just, wow. I have gone suicidal enough to attempt twice, I used to cut myself, but diferently than most people, cuz I got bullied at school till.

Now I'm not saying you should do the same, but I make a mental "revenge list" of people I'm going to get back at someday. I have seventeen on it, with two crossed off. They were both bullies. I got the first to meet me at a certain place, then I punched his nose in and broke his tibia, because he used to give me beatings and he never knew I took kickboxing and ju-jitsu. Then he stopped bullying me, so I went to the second. This was a lot of work, but I made sure that he fail the seventh grade last year, after he told me I'm too dumb for school. He should be eighth, he's still seventh. I'm working on three now. I don't even know what I will do, but I've found out he's into drugs, and he told me I'm retarded, so I think I might whip a stupid pill for him. And he'll most likely take it. Four, I know what I'll do. She was the one who took my virginity then left me without a heart. (Thinking back, it was she who convinced me to start fighting back against them. Funny, she unwittingly made her own life hell.) I will make sure that she will never, for as long as I can remember her, have a successful/happy relationship. I've already ,ade some plans with a few of my special friends.

I have found that vengeance has made me better, because:

1) I have an extremely violent mindset, and because I have such utter patience with people, they never realize it if I don't reveal it to them. Getting revenge takes my mind off this violence for a while. Its not much, but every hit helps.

2) I have a horrifying imagination, in both power/size, as well as what it imagines. This comes from a long-held and deep-set love of horror movies. As above, it takes my kind off of this horror that I keep replaying in my head.

3) I am into music (especially singing and songwriting) and I write my own songs. This gives me inspiration.

There are other, but they are mostly just side-reasons ans not real reasons. I can harbor a grudge to terrifying lengths, so I always know which one next, but unfortunately, not which method next.

That is how I got to cope with bullies, and it has helped to stop my cutting problems too. I'm not going to waste your time any further with details of that too. V/PM me for that. But trust me, I cut using a much less...conventional method than most.

[danny16_]

Well that violence took over me. I tried to stop but I have a bad anger problem when people try to backstab me or treat me like crap. I don't think no one should be bullied but that how the world is. I thought I trusted Micah ( from the story) but he betrayed me and told some people I was gay when I told him I'm not ready. Also he told everybody " im a little bitch since I got raped" :,( I trusted him so much. Well one day I had to go to the hospital for 7 days. I come back to find out he was planning to jump me. Didn't go as planned for him. Be careful who to trust.

[ECSTASY]

Well that violence took over me. I tried to stop but I have a bad anger problem when people try to backstab me or treat me like crap. I don't think no one should be bullied but that how the world is. I thought I trusted Micah ( from the story) but he betrayed me and told some people I was gay when I told him I'm not ready. Also he told everybody " im a little bitch since I got raped" :,( I trusted him so much. Well one day I had to go to the hospital for 7 days. I come back to find out he was planning to jump me. Didn't go as planned for him. Be careful who to trust.

yah i agree , thats why i changed my mind and didnt say anything to my closest friends . i don't really trust em .

[Chrisscotland]

I read everything you wrote, and going through all that must have been terrible but you must be very strong on the inside, even if you cant always feel that, its there, I don't really know wot to say, other than I hope things get better for you, your brave to share all that with people here, stay strong.

[RavleIncarnate]

Well that violence took over me. I tried to stop but I have a bad anger problem when people try to backstab me or treat me like crap. I don't think no one should be bullied but that how the world is. I thought I trusted Micah ( from the story) but he betrayed me and told some people I was gay when I told him I'm not ready. Also he told everybody " im a little bitch since I got raped" :,( I trusted him so much. Well one day I had to go to the hospital for 7 days. I come back to find out he was planning to jump me. Didn't go as planned for him. Be careful who to trust.

:eek:Oh, wow. He planned to actually jump you?! That's just... I'm at a loss for words. How do you mean, "It didn't go as planned for him?". I have the same agro issues with traitors and such. I was once the "boy next door." Everyone was friends with me, except the occasional grumpy old man. (You know, that "get off my lawn!!"type.) Then this started. Tht was when I turned into what some say is a hollow shell of a guy. I'm not hollow. I'm not shallow. I still have feelings. I learned to love again, a few months after Fiana's fiasco. I'm recovering. I only do that stuff, cuz with every person dealt with, it feels like I get a piece of my emotions/humanity/personality back. That's why I do it. And that lesson about "Be careful about who you trust?" Learned that much too late.



And guess what? Even with everything I planned and stuffies, I'm still not even 14.

[The3rdArmy]

My god, this reminds me too much of Dave Pelzer's story, except his was physical and yours was sexual and physical.

CONTACT THE AUTHORITIES. IF YOU STILL HAVE YOUR FRIENDS, HAVE THEM VOUCH FOR YOU.
www.rainn.org - National Sexual Assault Hotline

ChildHelp National Child Abuse Hotline
Crisis counselors are available to talk 24 hours/day.
1-800-4-A-CHILD or 1-800-422-4453
www.childhelp.org

[danny16_]

Dragonrider:
It was so bad for me that I attempted suicide in 1st grade :/
I told my friend I was planning to do it cause I was scared and I didn't like this place. He laughed at me and said pussy. Micah knew I was going attempt it after he did that to me. He even told me " shit ill give you the knife so your bitch ass is not in this world with normal people" This had me on my low of lows

The3rdamry:
I tried :,( I tried so bad to get what they deserve( my brother , my friend ) but when I EVEN showed the video to my school counselor when I was beaten out cold , Dfax or whatever their name is got involved. THEY DIDNT DO SHIT. :,( This lady from there came to my house and everybody lied to her. AND SHE BELIVED IT ALL . EVERYTHING . So they left. The house got worse ever since im a snitch now. There is nothing else I could do in my power.

And by the way I got no prove of the sexual assault's plus he helps pay my mom rents cause my mom cant pay for it fully. There is no way out.

P.s when u said what happen when I said " It didn't go as planned for him" the day he tried to jump me , I had the jump on him first lets say that

[xXl0sth0peXx]

I don't think anyone here will ever think you're craving for attention, whether your story takes up one sentence or 50 posts. We're here for you to share your story without being judged. Sometimes, just letting everything out makes someone feel better.

I wish I had real advice for you, but I honestly don't. I think you have a truly inspirational story though. Life will get better. It might not be today, or tomorrow.. but the sun's shining for you in the future. I can see by just your story that you will go places. You're strength is admirable, and I think a lot of people feel that way too - whether you see/know it or not.

Keep hanging in there; it will get better. You can always drop me a PM if you need someone to talk to. :)

[danny16_]

I don't think anyone here will ever think you're craving for attention, whether your story takes up one sentence or 50 posts. We're here for you to share your story without being judged. Sometimes, just letting everything out makes someone feel better.

I wish I had real advice for you, but I honestly don't. I think you have a truly inspirational story though. Life will get better. It might not be today, or tomorrow.. but the sun's shining for you in the future. I can see by just your story that you will go places. You're strength is admirable, and I think a lot of people feel that way too - whether you see/know it or not.

Keep hanging in there; it will get better. You can always drop me a PM if you need someone to talk to. :)

Thank you xXlosthopeXx that means a lot :)
I like to let it out here since I'm not getting judged cause we all here or most of us had been through some shit ( sorry for language)
I don't mind if someone didn't believe me with my story but I know there are worst out there and I pray for them. Wishing the world was not as cruel.

I said it once and ill say it again , I Love this community you got here . Its awesome .

[RavleIncarnate]

Dragonrider:
It was so bad for me that I attempted suicide in 1st grade :/
I told my friend I was planning to do it cause I was scared and I didn't like this place. He laughed at me and said pussy. Micah knew I was going attempt it after he did that to me. He even told me " shit ill give you the knife so your bitch ass is not in this world with normal people" This had me on my low of lows

The3rdamry:
I tried :,( I tried so bad to get what they deserve( my brother , my friend ) but when I EVEN showed the video to my school counselor when I was beaten out cold , Dfax or whatever their name is got involved. THEY DIDNT DO SHIT. :,( This lady from there came to my house and everybody lied to her. AND SHE BELIVED IT ALL . EVERYTHING . So they left. The house got worse ever since im a snitch now. There is nothing else I could do in my power.

And by the way I got no prove of the sexual assault's plus he helps pay my mom rents cause my mom cant pay for it fully. There is no way out.

P.s when u said what happen when I said " It didn't go as planned for him" the day he tried to jump me , I had the jump on him first lets say that

Ah. You do know how to use the quote button, right? The one saying "QUOTE" in the bottom-right corner of every post? And if you hit the button next to it, then hit tht same button on another post, and then say "QUOTE", you quote all the ones you press the button next to it in one post. I just figured it out.

Oh, yeah. That's terrible. I only worked up the courage in 6th grade. I'm 8th now, and I'll never move my right shoulder or breathe properly ever again.

[RavleIncarnate]

Thank you xXlosthopeXx that means a lot :)
I like to let it out here since I'm not getting judged cause we all here or most of us had been through some shit ( sorry for language)
I don't mind if someone didn't believe me with my story but I know there are worst out there and I pray for them. Wishing the world was not as cruel.

I said it once and ill say it again , I Love this community you got here . Its awesome .

Cool. She is great, isn't she?

That's why I let it all hang out here too.

And the language isn't a problem, you know. In the rules, it says that anyone can use any language they want, as long as when they get into a fight it goes to PM's.

Me too, Daniel. Me too.

And it is, isn't it?

[Bmble_B]

:(Hello my name is Daniel and I'm 16 now. I hate to tell anyone my story in person and I get very depressed from thinking of it. Not the worst in the world I know but its bad enough to where I want to end it. Sorry if its long:/

I can remember up to the age of 5. At this point of my life as 5 I was sacred. My dad was a drunk and beat my mom. I remember coming home with him once at 5 and he bought me chips but I fell and hit my forehead on the wall resulting in dropping the chips. We got home and I ran knowing he was mad. He chased me and pulled my hair back and chocked my neck saying don't do it again or else. I didn't want to know want the or else was. My dog was my angel to me, my stress reliever. I would sleep with him and wonder of the world. Then my mom filed a divorce. This lawyer lady kept asking me all this questions saying and putting me under pressure. Well that day is when hell struck me. I went with my mom to a cousin house. I loved it there for GTA Vise city. This time though my mom was leaving me there with my cousin. Well he raped me not once but 3 times while I was 5. Once with a friend. Anyways at school I was called retarted and pushed around. I was then put in special ed. I then was being more bullied. My brother brought me to his friend house once but his friend had a brother . We knew each other a bit. One day I got there and was raped once again . Next day at school I attempted suicide at the age of 5 thinking maybe I be free of this. I was considered crazy and had to do a lot of things after that , that I don't want to explain.

Things seem to lighten up though. Even though I failed the 1st grade. I lived in New York at the time but when 4th grade came I moved to Georgia. I was scared and shy. I meet my best friends Zach and Amer. I was the weird kid once again. I tried to be different , I really did but I guess I was retarted. Kids did not like me at all no matter what I did. My mom met this baseball coach though and he started helping pay the house cause my mom was struggling. He took me to the coolest places and treated me as if I was his son. Zach and amer made everything feel so right and as if I was happy and smiling again. Hell really hit in middle school.

My mom turned into the sweetest lady to someone that yells at me everyday and saying I was a mistake. She would say she should of got a abortion. This really hurt me as I loved her so dearly. She would kick me out. I meet my other best friend Micah. We were so cool it was crazy. Anyways back to the house. My brother moved out the one I really loved. Then my nightmare came to me . I started looking at guys instead of girls. Zach would blush over a girl while he doesn't know my crush for him begin to grew. I fell in love with Zach in my head. I knew though I would be hated for being gay since I'm Hispanic. I didn't have the slightest clue to tell anyone. I didn't have no signs of being gay. I remember I was looking up gay teen on the computer when all of the sudden of brother Andy the oldest ( not the one I love) came to me , picked me up and slammed my back and head to the floor. I was in huge pain. I couldn't take the damn abuse anymore. I had a outbreak in 7th grade. Cursing out teacher, almost fighting a teacher , fighting students ,walking out of the classroom. The rage it felt so good honestly it felt amazing. Punching a student face in. This kept helping till 9th grade. Between 8th grade and 9th grade (summer) I came out the closet. I heard family hate me. My mom demanded me to take it down my Facebook. I declined. My brother I loved started calling me a faggot. This made me feel as no one loves cause of this cause the way I feel towards someone. Anyways Towards the 8th grade summer my brother I love came back but different. Now things have changed.

He was mad one day and I was worried cause I don't get mad to the people I really love. He was yelling to my mom and said " YOUR BUM ASS KID IS A BITCH. HE A LOSER , HE DONT DO SHIT." Hearing this from him made my heart stop , why me. He came up to me and smashed the side of my head to the wall and slapped me. I was shocked , WHY HIM. Another day he beat me till where I made marks and bruises all over my face . It looked like a car was dragging me on a highway. I started getting depressed again. Thank god I had my stress reliever, my dog. Which ended 9th grade on Sept. I cried for so long. Then my best friend Micah stopped being friends with me. I forgot to say I was being sexually assaulted by that baseball coach since 7th grade. I couldn't take it again. I was no longer mean me , it was sad me but happy on the outside. I attempted this year and took a lot of pills the day my brother beat me up again to where I looked like I was dragged from the highway. I thought I would die , I really did. I didn't though , I'm here typing this.

I hate to think like this everyday, death........
Sounds so peaceful to me now.
But I also learned even though life is a bitch don't let it overcome you. After the attempt , I got the rage back. I'm not a asshole to people , I would never. I'm the asshole towards the real assholes. Don't do the mistakes I did by attempt. Be stronger then me.

I'm so sorry its long so I made sure I didn't put everything down to shorten the text and for personal reasons also I know your not going to read a whole story. I didn't share my story for attention cause if I wanted attention I would have put it on my Facebook. I just wanted to share my story for some reason :/

Thank you for taking your precious time for reading this.

Oh my God...
Thank you so much for sharing your story, I'm almost in tears because of it. I'm so sorry that you had to go through so much throughout your life. I admire you for still being strong, after all of the unfortunate turn of events. And if you want to talk to someone, you can always pm me! :D

[RavleIncarnate]

Oh my God...
Thank you so much for sharing your story, I'm almost in tears because of it. I'm so sorry that you had to go through so much throughout your life. I admire you for still being strong, after all of the unfortunate turn of events. And if you want to talk to someone, you can always pm me! :D

I'd say the same, except that I don't cry...
I do, too. I'd have given up long ago.
And unfortunatley ha can't pm. He doesn't have his 100th post yet :( D:

[Bmble_B]

I'd say the same, except that I don't cry...
I do, too. I'd have given up long ago.
And unfortunatley ha can't pm. He doesn't have his 100th post yet :( D:

Heh Im a frikkin crybaby :whoops:

[danny16_]

Oh my God...
Thank you so much for sharing your story, I'm almost in tears because of it. I'm so sorry that you had to go through so much throughout your life. I admire you for still being strong, after all of the unfortunate turn of events. And if you want to talk to someone, you can always pm me! :D



I know that my past was crap and I didn't even say everything for personal reasons but ( hug) Thank you for taking your time to read it. It means a lot to me hearing that from a person, from anybody.

And I know Dragonrider I wish I could pm but cant wait to hit my 100th post :yeah:

[RavleIncarnate]

Heh Im a frikkin crybaby :whoops:

Hahaha...is that a Bleach Captain I spy on a certain someone's avatar? Is he someone normally associated with the cold, or is my memory misleading me yet again?

I know that my past was crap and I didn't even say everything for personal reasons but ( hug) Thank you for taking your time to read it. It means a lot to me hearing that from a person, from anybody.

And I know Dragonrider I wish I could pm but cant wait to hit my 100th post :yeah:

Meh. I dunno if you're offended by the fact that I didn't cry, but yes, I read the whole thing, and please don't take it personally. I just...don't cry. I just don't. I am incredibly insensitive to emotional pain after my last ex ripped my neating heart straight out of my chest, and I have the scars to prove it. But don't worry, I'm regaining my sensitive side little-by-little. Baby steps, right?

And :yeah:, I was so psyched when I got my hundredth. If only I could remember when it was... :/

[danny16_]

Hahaha...is that a Bleach Captain I spy on a certain someone's avatar? Is he someone normally associated with the cold, or is my memory misleading me yet again?



Meh. I dunno if you're offended by the fact that I didn't cry, but yes, I read the whole thing, and please don't take it personally. I just...don't cry. I just don't. I am incredibly insensitive to emotional pain after my last ex ripped my neating heart straight out of my chest, and I have the scars to prove it. But don't worry, I'm regaining my sensitive side little-by-little. Baby steps, right?

And :yeah:, I was so psyched when I got my hundredth. If only I could remember when it was... :/

I'm not offended at all , I understand. I once had a girlfriend. Same happen to you happen to me. She just ripped it out and walked over it like trash.

[RavleIncarnate]

I'm not offended at all , I understand. I once had a girlfriend. Same happen to you happen to me. She just ripped it out and walked over it like trash.

Yeah, that happened to a lot of guys. But I'm thirteen. Did she crush your virginity two days beforehand too?

[danny16_]

Yeah, that happened to a lot of guys. But I'm thirteen. Did she crush your virginity two days beforehand too?

Well if you read the story , that is gone already :/
but without bringing that up .
No she didn't , I told her give me time.
I found out recently ( around March)
Micah told her what happen to me and she thought I was pathetic so she did something
:/ she decided it would be a funny thing to do if she went to my brother car , pop a tire and said I wanted to apologize . He came up to me later that day and well yeah.........

[RavleIncarnate]

Well if you read the story , that is gone already :/
but without bringing that up .
No she didn't , I told her give me time.
I found out recently ( around March)
Micah told her what happen to me and she thought I was pathetic so she did something
:/ she decided it would be a funny thing to do if she went to my brother car , pop a tire and said I wanted to apologize . He came up to me later that day and well yeah.........

Oh, yeah, I shouldve noticed that *shyly puts hand behind head* and that's just crap. Who does shit like that? That's just...meh.

[danny16_]

Oh, yeah, I shouldve noticed that *shyly puts hand behind head* and that's just crap. Who does shit like that? That's just...meh.

A person that does that, is a girl that thinks she just to popular and cool and thinks she can get away with anything.

[RavleIncarnate]

A person that does that, is a girl that thinks she just to popular and cool and thinks she can get away with anything.

Yeah. I have very, very bad anger issues. I have huge amoints of patience, so very few people can actually crack this nut even in the slightest, but the day that this shell cracks, it blows wiiide open. And I don't like going all white-eyed on people, but things like this really upset me.

[danny16_]

Yeah. I have very, very bad anger issues. I have huge amoints of patience, so very few people can actually crack this nut even in the slightest, but the day that this shell cracks, it blows wiiide open. And I don't like going all white-eyed on people, but things like this really upset me.

That makes two of us

[RavleIncarnate]

Really? How do people know when you are at your worst?

[danny16_]

Really? How do people know when you are at your worst?

o god , believe me , people know. When im mad I don't think straight ( by that I mean I don't care what happens to me in the aftermath) I go all out , my voice is loud as hell. I been in fights and I won. Not bragging im just saying im going need help for that anger XD

Problem is I cant fight relatives ( brother , etc) or best friends that I became really close to ( expect Micah beep him) I cant bring myself to go that low. Anybody I get close to I cant bring myself to get mad at the person ever

[Steve Jobs]

Don't ever put yourself in a position where you don't want pity because you think other people's problems are bigger than yours!

Everyone has problems of their own to deal with, but when people unite and stand together, it makes the world a better place for everyone - and you found the right place to be to do just that!

It's a heartbreaking story when your closest friends and family decide to abandon or fight against you, and although I haven't had to go through the same ordeal you did, I can definitely relate in many ways. I've never had close family I could trust or turn to when I was going through hard times and I've had my closest friends turn their backs on me, and it's saddening and really empties you.

Either way, push through it, it will get better. I've gone through phases of wanting to end my own life and do similar harmful things, and it's haunting, but quitting doesn't solve anything! It's not worth letting anyone else in this world ruin your dreams in life :bigsmile:

[danny16_]

Don't ever put yourself in a position where you don't want pity because you think other people's problems are bigger than yours!

Everyone has problems of their own to deal with, but when people unite and stand together, it makes the world a better place for everyone - and you found the right place to be to do just that!

It's a heartbreaking story when your closest friends and family decide to abandon or fight against you, and although I haven't had to go through the same ordeal you did, I can definitely relate in many ways. I've never had close family I could trust or turn to when I was going through hard times and I've had my closest friends turn their backs on me, and it's saddening and really empties you.

Either way, push through it, it will get better. I've gone through phases of wanting to end my own life and do similar harmful things, and it's haunting, but quitting doesn't solve anything! It's not worth letting anyone else in this world ruin your dreams in life :bigsmile:

Thanks Steve Jobs ^_^ and awesome avatar pic but anyways thanks for taking your time to write that. Stay awesome

[Jack russell dad]

My dog was my only friend, to, and now he's dead. I'm gay myself, and i know when i come out of the closet, every1 will hate me, as I'm Christian. Im a loner, also. My sister hates my guts. Just hold on, life will eventually turn good. Just pm me if u need to talk, and ill include u in my prayers.