Help!!! Im Losing It!!!

[Axellance]

I am trying to eat but its really hard. I feel fat whenever i eat. I am also trying to quit cutting. I dont knoe if i can keep eating and quit cutting at the same time. I can feel myself loosing my grip, every meal is a struggle i hear a little voice in my head when i eat telling me "your a fat pig and the food is making you fatter". I know its bad not to eat, but my head wont listen to logic. I just dont know what to do!!!!! I am afraid this will become to serious to handle on my own!!!

[Atonement]

It is already too serious to hangle on your own obviously. you aren't handling it anyways. Get help from someone, talk to a parents or good friend that will help you out.

[Axellance]

I dont have any friends that i would trust with this and in not telling my pearents!!!

[Atonement]

well, then you cant do this on your own, you need help from somewhere and VT can only do so much

[theOperaGhost]

You don't look fat to me. How much do you weigh?

[Axellance]

135ish

[theOperaGhost]

I weigh 100 more pounds than you, believe me your not fat. I hope you can eat soon, because your not fat.

[Whisper]

Your not fat!
Okay your weight is fine
If your really worried
Then just try and eat healthy
cut out the junk food

http://www.hc-sc.gc.ca/fn-an/food-guide-aliment/myguide-monguide/index_e.html

Balance your diet with regular exercise
you are NOT i repeat NOT overweight
but a balanced diet and exercise
will help improve your mood and how you feel in general by leaps and bounds

[japanman]

I am trying to eat but its really hard. I feel fat whenever i eat. I am also trying to quit cutting. I dont knoe if i can keep eating and quit cutting at the same time. I can feel myself loosing my grip, every meal is a struggle i hear a little voice in my head when i eat telling me "your a fat pig and the food is making you fatter". I know its bad not to eat, but my head wont listen to logic. I just dont know what to do!!!!! I am afraid this will become to serious to handle on my own!!!
you not fat and your brain may be telling your fat but if you and i mean you know that you should eat try to ignore just totaly block the thoughts out if the thought comes up replace once you hear your a fat pig just block it out with some thing out mabye try to work on one more then switch and work on not cutting but keep switching untill they are both gone hoped i help:)

[firestar85137]

135ish
trust me your not fat... i was like 180 lbs at age 11:whoops: your not fat. ive seen a person who probably weighs about 300 lbs at my school.

[Axellance]

its getting worse yesturday i got really sick. My stomic started hurting soooo bad not like hunger but like something really bad. Ive lost about 8lbs in the last two weeks.

[theOperaGhost]

It's really unhealthy. You should possibly go to a doctor. You need to start eating man.

[Axellance]

I know its unhealthy but its like i cant stop not eating until i reach my goal. I cant tell aneyone, i wont. I need to talke care of this without telling. I just hope my mom doesnt notice my quick weight loss. I dont know what to do, i probably should tell, but i wont.

[theOperaGhost]

Why won't you tell? If you don't want to post it you can PM me.

[Axellance]

Because i am totally hypocritical my cousin used to be anorexic and i used to act like it was sooo stupid to be that concerned about your weight. I guess my views changed when my stepmother, dad, sister, and brother started calling me fat alot and trying to "help" me loose weight. They always acted as though i was huge!
i also dont want to deal with everyone looking over my sholder to make shure i eat, anoying.
To make things worse i am a guy and its really unusual for this to happen to guys, i dont want friends and family to think im weird.

[theOperaGhost]

Don't listen to what other people think you, just tell yourself you're not fat, because your not.

[Kaleidoscope Eyes]

:hug: Don't worry about what your family says, Lance, they're wrong. My grandmother used to call me fat all the time (and still does, though not as often because I rarely see her anymore), though she'd always say it in a backhanded kind of way so no one could actually call her on it. She'd offer me dessert, then take back her offer saying something like, "Oh, I forgot, you need to be watching your calories. Cindee, Bryan, John, how about you guys, would you like some dessert?" I was maybe 11 when she started doing that, and telling me to suck my stomach in when we were out in public. I started to believe her a bit until other people pointed out to me how skinny I actually was. You need to remember that your opinion of yourself is important above everyone else's. No one has the right to make you feel fat, especially when you really aren't.

Please try to start eating again, even if its only a little bit. And keep increasing the amount until you're back up to a normal intake level. You can do this, I know you can! :)

[Axellance]

i do eat something each day its just a really small amount.

[Kaleidoscope Eyes]

I'm so sorry about that, I had been talking to him earlier and I guess I transposed the names. Sorry!

It's good that you're eating something. Is it possible to try to eat a little more though? I'm not talking three-course meals, just an extra snack throughout the day perhaps. It'd be a good start. :)

[Axellance]

Im doing a little better, as u can probably tell by my full frountal pic poasted in the photo album. Although i feel better about myself i still want to loose at least 15lbs. i have been eating more latly, although when i eat i still feel like a pig. I think this will be a short lived sucess as i am going to my dads house soon and i always feel really low when i am there, as a resut of there strict cristisn religion and my sexuallity, as well as there previous comments about my weight. If they say aneything else while i am there i fear i will loose it and go on a major crash diet. I hope this recent sucess lasts, but can alredy feel my confidance dwendaling.

[The Batman]

if they do say something then don't hold back your emotions any more just let them know how you feel right then and there because they need to know how this is affecting you

[Axellance]

you not fat and your brain may be telling your fat but if you and i mean you know that you should eat try to ignore just totaly block the thoughts out if the thought comes up replace once you hear your a fat pig just block it out with some thing out mabye try to work on one more then switch and work on not cutting but keep switching untill they are both gone hoped i help:)

I wish it was this simple, these thoughts cannot be blocked scince i beleve them. I know that statistically im not overweight,but i still feel as thought i am. I think it will stop, its just a matter of time.

[itsjustme9000]

you should PM me i had the same problem with cutting and eating we can talk

[Magenta]

Please don't bump old threads, this is from 2008! :locked: