Getting sick of this!

[Aidoon123]

Where to begin? Well, I have come out as bi to quite a number of people, so being out is really cool, I definitely feel more myself, and now that I am out I really want to experience a relationship with the same gender, as you do. But, my god, I feel like I am going insane! This country (Ireland) is just devoid of what is outside of the norm of society, as statistics say, there should be plenty of gay/bi guys, and I am in a school of 900 boys!! Yet, I am like one of the only open people, I feel like I am trapped in a bottle, slowly suffocating and will eventually disappear, it feels horrible. I feel totally useless in myself, I just want to love someone and have the same love back on me, but this place just drains the life from me. I was recently in London and I have never EVER seen so many openly gay, teenage boys in my life, I was in my element there!! Basically what I am doing here is ranting and kind of pleeing for a life-line, I can feel myself ever-so-slowly dying on the inside because of it, I have actually been having physical symptoms like fatigue, bouts of depression, really bad mood-swings and just a general unhappiness. Is there anyone out there who can help me? I actually feel like I am just dying inside, and will just be an empty shell by the end! How do I stop this horrible feeling?

[anoobis]

Try and date a girl?

[Living For Love]

I know that feeling. There are like 8 high schools in the city I live, yet I only know one openly gay person, I mean, I don't even know him personally, just that he came out and he is gay. And I can imagine how depressing it is to be gay and be totally alone, not because you don't have any friends, but because you haven't met a special person yet. I guess you only have to wait, you never know who might come across on your life. And you can always travel to somewhere else in the future, meet new people, there are plenty of opportunities, you just need to be patient.

[Aidoon123]

I know that feeling. There are like 8 high schools in the city I live, yet I only know one openly gay person, I mean, I don't even know him personally, just that he came out and he is gay. And I can imagine how depressing it is to be gay and be totally alone, not because you don't have any friends, but because you haven't met a special person yet. I guess you only have to wait, you never know who might come across on your life. And you can always travel to somewhere else in the future, meet new people, there are plenty of opportunities, you just need to be patient.

Yes, thank you, that made me feels so good inside. I have plenty of friends, more than I can count who are so supportive and fun, and unique and an amazing family, but I just feel I need that special one, and it's just eating me up inside!

[Aidoon123]

Anyone else have any more input? In a bit of a hole here... :/

[NeuroTiger]

Anyone else have any more input? In a bit of a hole here... :/

Don't get me wrong here...
Well, are you gay or bi? O.o

[ksdnfkfr]

it's easy to ruin your life by obsessing over something you don't have - yet

[Pizzahead]

I know how you feel i go to school in ireland as well and there are no openly gay people in my school or in my area

[Aidoon123]

Don't get me wrong here...
Well, are you gay or bi? O.o

I am bi :P

[NeuroTiger]

I am bi :P

Why don't you date a girl then?

[JamesSuperBoy]

You need to find the special one - so maybe the looking for is half the fun.

[Aidoon123]

Why don't you date a girl then?

Because I want to try to whole dating a guy thing, at the moment girls are the last thing on my mind

You need to find the special one - so maybe the looking for is half the fun.

not when you have been looking for like 11 months :/

[yeahsure]

try making more friends... i dont think anyone finds dating easy!

im in scotland, and i havnt heard anyone my age is bi or gay at school..

[Aidoon123]

try making more friends... i dont think anyone finds dating easy!

im in scotland, and i havnt heard anyone my age is bi or gay at school..

I am always on the hunt for new friends, unfortunately none of them are bi or gay, except I know like 20 bi girls, which is an unfair balance :/

[yeahsure]

you can be my friend then :D

be patient, i know its easy to say... but it's always the best option rather than blaming other things.. the more people you meet every day, the closer you get ;) it will happen..

[Aidoon123]

you can be my friend then :D

be patient, i know its easy to say... but it's always the best option rather than blaming other things.. the more people you meet every day, the closer you get ;) it will happen..

Oh god, I hope so, or I will just explode.... :L

[yeahsure]

it will, hope is nicer than feeling sorry for yourself..

we are all looking for love :D

there's someone somewhere that is looking for you, and you just need to keep on that journey until you cross paths:yes:

sitting on the floor in a huff, face on hands, or beleiving that you can find love? we are all looking, join in :)

[Aidoon123]

it will, hope is nicer than feeling sorry for yourself..

we are all looking for love :D

there's someone somewhere that is looking for you, and you just need to keep on that journey until you cross paths:yes:

sitting on the floor in a huff, face on hands, or beleiving that you can find love? we are all looking, join in :)

I suppose, but I could get a girlfriend tomorrow if I wanted to, but I just want to experience a relationship with a guy... :/

[sqishy]

I've come out to a few people but deliberately not to more because there are some homophobes in the school and I don't want that going on (escpecially close to exams). I agree, most of Ireland is like in the closet with this and by LGBT stats there must be 15 LGBTs in school at least but nobody says anything, nothing happens! I've had to deal with it more and moods swings etc I get too :( I agree with everything you say. My advice is too long-term, which is go to university where they're more open with it (especially in TCD and Dublin city where I am aiming to be this september).
I don't know how to help otherwise :/

[Aidoon123]

I've come out to a few people but deliberately not to more because there are some homophobes in the school and I don't want that going on (escpecially close to exams). I agree, most of Ireland is like in the closet with this and by LGBT stats there must be 15 LGBTs in school at least but nobody says anything, nothing happens! I've had to deal with it more and moods swings etc I get too :( I agree with everything you say. My advice is too long-term, which is go to university where they're more open with it (especially in TCD and Dublin city where I am aiming to be this september).
I don't know how to help otherwise :/

Well the problem with that is, I won't be able to move until I am 19/20 which is another 4-5 years away (WAY longer than I wanted) I don't want to uproot to a place just on the off chance I could be in a relationship and lastly, I want to get out of this god forsaken country, not move to an even worse part of this god forsaken country xD

[sqishy]

Well the problem with that is, I won't be able to move until I am 19/20 which is another 4-5 years away (WAY longer than I wanted) I don't want to uproot to a place just on the off chance I could be in a relationship and lastly, I want to get out of this god forsaken country, not move to an even worse part of this god forsaken country xD

Yeah agreed here

[TurboDieselBandit]

I am bi :P

Me too and I'm in the same situation. I see many people everyday and I'm quite extroverted but only know 2 gay people at my school, already taken and definitely not my type. So that only leaves me wondering what it would be like when I day dream. Maybe social outlets like Facebook can help. I search things like "Gay teens in (location)" or gay teen groups in general. Main problem is most teens that interest me are not old enough to use some group meet-up websites; not 18 yet.

[Aidoon123]

Me too and I'm in the same situation. I see many people everyday and I'm quite extroverted but only know 2 gay people at my school, already taken and definitely not my type. So that only leaves me wondering what it would be like when I day dream. Maybe social outlets like Facebook can help. I search things like "Gay teens in (location)" or gay teen groups in general. Main problem is most teens that interest me are not old enough to use some group meet-up websites; not 18 yet.

I don't know, using social sites can be kind of risky, especially on a personal profile like Facebook, it just sucks that I can't find anyone, and America and the UK are a lot bigger than Ireland :/

[Dalcourt]

I dunno if this problem is confined to gay/bi people...finding someone to be with can always be difficult. I find the harder you try the fewer success you have, that's something I always see with my friends, all those who try so hard to find someone seem never to succed. The best is to just try to take your mind off the whole finding someone thing. It's weird to try to find someone just for the sake of trying with a guy anyway....