Can't find the best friend

[centropede]

I don't have the best friend :( And i have no idea how to get one.

Ok, so i'm 15, boy, gay in closet. I watch anime, listen to nightcore, watching drama movies.
I once said in class that i like drama movies and they were giggling, why? They are doing it all the time when something leads to drama things, they look at me and giggle.
Said once that i watch anime to my crush (yeh....trying to get him out of my mind, he ignores me, plays PC all the time and he have another way better friend and im all the time jellous) and he was like "AHAHAHA, that korean shit?" and i was like okey.....and went away.

So everyone has got best friend everywhere i look. I'm like the left out.
Yes, i have classmates but they are not like friends and not even close to best friend so yeah, what am i doing wrong? I feel like everyone hates me, maby im too mean? Yes i might be a bit too open with my thoughts, might they be scared...? :(

And i'm living in one city where i dont have friends at all, yes i had but i dont feel comfortable with them, and yeah, im learing in another city so its like school and then i run to the bus to get home :| And when i have time or something i asked maby they want to do something, like go somewhere while i dont have to go to a bus but they dont want to im even ok to go on a later bus.
They are going to each other and having fun, walking around the city and stuff. I'm never invited.
Even on skype conversations im not invited.

And at classmates b-days im like left out too, because they play xbox or PC all the time and i dont do any of them so im just sitting in a chair and eating. When i try to talk with any of them, they are like oh, yeah, yeah and continue playing.

They are talking about porn, everybody does bu i dont do because i dont watch st8 porn of course... yeah i know a lot about it but i dont feel like talking about any kind of porn.

Everybody is ignoring me. I feel like i have nothing that someone would be interested in. Like empty ball...or just something invisible.

There are no events where i could find friends or anything.

i dont know what else, what is this problem with me? What is wrong with me.

tl;dr I have problems to make best friend or at least good friend. What to do?

[CassnovA]

you can go to forums for your hobbies like anime and find people on it who live near you

[Living For Love]

I'm pretty much in the same situation as you. I don't have a best friend, and by best friends I mean someone you hang out with at school most of the time, someone you know you can talk with about anything, someone you really trust, not sure if this is your definition of best friend.

Anyway, what I wanted to say is that, since you're already part of a class, at school, it will be a bit difficult to you to get a best friend who is only yours. What I mean is that, we generally don't want only to have our best friend, but we also want that person to see us as their only best friends as well. And I don't consider that selfishness or anything, I guess it's just the way things work. For instance, in middle school, I was this really weird, shy kid and, to my surprise, I got along really well with another boy who was like really popular and out going, totally opposite of me. We were together a lot of time at school, and I used to join him wherever he went to, and while we were walking, every 20 seconds he was greeted by someone in the hallways, and I was always next to him, quiet, just watching his normal daily routine at school as a popular kid who gets along well with everyone. But the truth is that, despite I considered him my best friend, or at lest the only friend I had at that time, he could hardly consider me his best friend. He would just ask me during the school breaks to join him while he had to go to the library, or go to the school bar, etc.

From what you said, I realise most of the people in your class has already their best friends, so, like you said, no room for you. You see, if you want to have a best friend, you probably are looking for someone who is alone and left out like you, and, from what you've written, that seems a bit unlikely in your class, because everyone is already integrated. This is why you shouldn't focus, at least for now, on finding only one best friend, but instead a small group of friends. That way it would be easier for you to develop a special bond with at least one of them after you're integrated in the group. Now, you can try to integrate on one of the groups in your class or, if that's a bit difficult, you could try to join some kind of club or extracurricular activity, and meet new people. It's your choice, really, you just need to be sensible enough when picking the group of people with roughly the same interests and that you would see you would fit well in.

[Gumleaf]

Yes, I totally get what you mean. It seems like everyone else around you are happy in their close relationships and friendships, but your out left in the cold. It's the same for me. I really do want more then anything to have that connection with someone, a loyal loving friend who I can be back. Like you, I find it hard. But the ideas of trying to join social groups in your school and stuff like that is really your best avenue to find someone who you can connect with. Best friends don't just happen, it has to be someone you have a connection with and the friendship develop from there. Good luck. :)

[hithere14]

i have best friends because i just try and be nice then when have them you can be a dick

[Wyatt 13]

Well dude that happened to me until I started to play sports and get involved in church activities there I found some friends

[JamesSuperBoy]

Yeah it just varies some are just friends by more habit than true friends. You know where you are and thats good.

[Body odah Man]

I don't have any best friends either :(
Sometimes you just can't find any :(

[Nicola14Swaggy]

Same,just straight... Got some good friends but no besties like to fap together or go everywhere together or smthing :D