deadly urge

[thatgothgirluknow]

ive had a really bad fucking night all ive been able to feel is scared sad and numb right now im just so numb and i want to cut so bad and i know that if i cut where i want to cut as deep as i want to cut it will probley kill me but at the moment i dont care im just so numb its not that i want to die but im not scared to die the urge is just so strong and im just so triered of being numb sad and scared i have a stranger moving in with me soon and i know that it will only get worse when they come

[MechaSniper]

Jordan I'm here if you need to talk. please don't go back to cutting. you're doing so well. i'm here if you need to talk.

[Katiya]

I've had that feeling many many times before.

Well, don't do it. That's all I can say, that feeling is impossible to satisfy, believe me. Tell ur counselor about the stranger and make sure ur never home alone with him and lock ur door at night, insist ur gma get a deadbolt for your door. You don't know this man and frankly neither does she, he may be a good man but we just can't take that chance.

[thatgothgirluknow]

she doesnt care she thinks she knows him and no matter what i say shes letting him move in plus she thinks everything that happened to me is my fault but im feeling a bit better hoping its completely gone tommrow

[Katiya]

she doesnt care she thinks she knows him and no matter what i say shes letting him move in plus she thinks everything that happened to me is my fault but im feeling a bit better hoping its completely gone tommrow

Yeah, serious red flag right there! I'd consider asking ur counselor about finding u a safe place to stay of she wants to do that. I know where I am they have programs for teens to move in with SAFE family's until the home situation becomes less sketchy. I've done it its not bad, the people were tolerable. Its different but not too bad.

[thatgothgirluknow]

Yeah, serious red flag right there! I'd consider asking ur counselor about finding u a safe place to stay of she wants to do that. I know where I am they have programs for teens to move in with SAFE family's until the home situation becomes less sketchy. I've done it its not bad, the people were tolerable. Its different but not too bad.
if it has anything to do with csb then its completley out they could care less about me and i really dnt think i could anyway

[Katiya]

if it has anything to do with csb then its completley out they could care less about me and i really dnt think i could anyway

What's CSB?

Are you from a large city or smalish town?

Sometimes citys are shity (OK that was kina a funny pun lol)

[thatgothgirluknow]

city csb is childerns service but they refuse to do anything for me