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dinger
February 29th, 2008, 02:48 AM
well today i am feeling really drained and icky. and not feeling too well. feeling really weak and blah.
and then i started thinking about dying and it got me really depressed.
i mean like parents are not ment to see their kids die and give thema funeral. it should be the opposite way around. but for me it is different.
i dont want to die. but i know i will. and in a couple of years.
and i realised that today, that that is too soon. and its not enough time to live.
i wish i could go back and change the things i did. and change they way that i am today.

i am feeling realy upset and a bit depressed.
its my fault i am dying, and i didnt fix it and stop it, but know its too late. :(
Atonement
February 29th, 2008, 03:07 AM
There is still hope, still chance, and still a possibility. Just, get help, professional and the greatest help you can get. Have all the support in the world. Get better and be healthy. :hug: I have seen recovery and I have seen miracles. You could be a miracle too!
dinger
February 29th, 2008, 03:11 AM
i am far from a miracle.
Atonement
February 29th, 2008, 03:15 AM
With that attitude you are. You just need to believe that there is relief out there and you can get it. It is all about believing in yourself. If you believe that you CAN get better, you CAN get better. Just get as much help as you can! You need help and you need professionals to help you. Stay positive and look at all the fantastic parts of your life. And I know there are some.
RaisingSand
March 5th, 2008, 08:08 PM
Think a bit more about what I said to you last night in chat. You have another chance to turn this around, and you owe it to yourself, your boyfriend and your family to do this. There's still hope, and you really deserve to get better.
We all know you can. :hug:
dinger
March 7th, 2008, 04:05 AM
i just dont think i can do it.
what it wrong with me.

i am dying.
but i wont do anything to fix it.
Hyper
March 7th, 2008, 03:52 PM
i just dont think i can do it.
what it wrong with me.

i am dying.
but i wont do anything to fix it.

That's called low self-esteem, if you don't fight and belive for yourself of course you can't do it, and if you don't fight for yourself you'll be the one killing yourself.

Theres obviously people who belive in you, including here.. Even that little thing means alot..