Might drink a bottle of CBD Tincture

[MatveiBehnke]

I feel like drinking a bottle of CBD Tincture because I want to kill myself, I know it might not overdose, but it might intoxicate me and get me really high then I will be dead.

Life has been really frustrating me with autism, I want to achieve my goal to have happiness and I feel it's the only dream I have to look forward to, but I feel like I overthink a lot and have depression and it's damaging my health.

If I don't achieve my goal of studying in Russia, it might seem like a good plan to suicide, I know I don't want to go through the mental pain and I can die saying I tried and it's my parent's fault.

Anyone can give advice, if I get really high and intoxicated, I will let you know, if I don't, I will most likely be dead and not be able to post on the forums anymore, this might be my last post if I end up dead.

[BlackParadePixie]

Have you ever stopped to think that maybe your entire "goal" of studying in Russia is unrealistic? Like...you've set the bar WAY too high for yourself?
You have autism. And I'm not saying this to be mean, but it kinda seems like you can barely function the way things are now...how can you possibly think you'll be able to travel to and live in Russia all by yourself?
People with autism have done amazing things, I'm not discounting that...but do you have anyone helping you try to achieve this?

And by the way, drinking a bottle of CBD isn't going to get you high or intoxicated...there is no THC in CBD oil.

[Second Chance]

I will not sit here and patronize you by telling you what you want to hear. However, I believe you should take a step back and think about things logically.

Autism is a disorder, and most disorders can be treated. Assuming you live in Las Vegas, then there are lot of places in your area that can help people with your disorder and get you back on your feet.

I believe once you can get a handle on your Autism, then studying in Russia or any other post-Soviet country is something that can be done in the future when you are all right. You need to be in a safe place mentally before you can even think of leaving where you are. I agree with the person above that expecting to go to Russia at this point is setting the bar too high and will no doubt make you feel like a failure. You also should have another goal in case the Russian one does not work out because you always need a Plan A and then a Plan B.

If there are Russian organizations in your area, then I would suggest that you join them to get a way to achieve your dream. I would find it hard to believe there are no Russian organizations in your city, and based upon a quick search I have found the following:

1. All Saints Russian Orthodox Church (https://russianorthodoxlasvegas.org/category/russian-community/)

2. Las Vegas Russian Club (https://www.facebook.com/LasVegasRussianClub/)


If Russian is really your thing, then I am sure you can find a Russian therapist where you are.

In short, I believe you have options, and you should explore them before hurting yourself. I hope that you can talk with your family or friends before doing anything because above all else you need to get your mental health all right. Once your mental health and Autism are managed, then follow your dreams.

[SheltonBeckfield]

First of all, autism is not a disease, but a condition with which a person is born. It cannot be cured, but over time you can adjust and adapt a person to social life. Autism manifests itself in developmental delay and unwillingness to contact the outside world. It cannot be diagnosed immediately at birth. It manifests itself later at the physiological level. You can recognize it by observing the behavior and reactions of the baby. However, due to misdiagnosis, it happens that children with autism are diagnosed with schizophrenia.

[Valkyri]

Is this a bad joke?
Suicide if you can study in Russia?

[DarkDragon]

I feel like drinking a bottle of CBD Tincture because I want to kill myself, I know it might not overdose, but it might intoxicate me and get me really high then I will be dead.

Life has been really frustrating me with autism, I want to achieve my goal to have happiness and I feel it's the only dream I have to look forward to, but I feel like I overthink a lot and have depression and it's damaging my health.

If I don't achieve my goal of studying in Russia, it might seem like a good plan to suicide, I know I don't want to go through the mental pain and I can die saying I tried and it's my parent's fault.

Anyone can give advice, if I get really high and intoxicated, I will let you know, if I don't, I will most likely be dead and not be able to post on the forums anymore, this might be my last post if I end up dead.

the others have said it and i want to throw in my opinons. I admire your goal to learn Russian but you're taking it too far if you're willing to commit suicide for failing to learn it or take time. at this point its an obsession, a dangerous one. You really need to step back and readjust your goals. Your objective is to learn Russian and you should be setting targets/goals to help you achieve it.

you need to be SMART about it. Make your targets something specific, measurable, achieveable, realistic and timed. You could spend a week learning a topic and measure your progress etc. You cant just throw yourself and expect to learn Russian easily and quickly.

I really believe you can do it but it'lll take time and you need to be patient. rushing wont help. dont give up. dont let the people who told you that you cant do it win.
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Another thing i want to point out is your behaviour to me is pathetic and i'm sorry to say it . you're essentially saying you'll kill yourself if you cant/dont do this which is just simply petty and the most dumb thing you can do. You have potential, you have people that care about you, you have a dream to fulfil and you're going to throw it away?

yes autism is making your goal harder to achieve buts its not impossible.have you ever heard of these two sayings "No pain, no gain?" without sweat, blood and tears you will not achieve what you want and sometimes the things you gain will require pain. THERE IS NO EASY WAY TO EVERYTHING.

Another thing i'd like to ask is why is it your parents fault? is it truly their fault or are you just blaming it on them as its easier on you? if so then you need to be responsible for your actions and learn that blaming others wont help. yes it makes it easier on your mind but we wont learn from this

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Sorry for the rant, i dont want to see someone commit suicide but at the same time he needs to think more on the matter.

we're still here for you mate
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