OCD + Cutting

[maddogmj77]

I'm minor OCD, and some things will annoy the S*** out of me until I fix them. I started cutting 5 days ago because I was depressed. I no longer want to cut because I am depressed, I want to cut because I just feel like I need more cuts. I wanna make them all over my thighs on both legs. I haven't cut for 2 days, but it's going to drive me insane if I don't. I am ALWAYS thinking about cutting, it never slips my mind for even a second. I don't know what to do. :(

Update: I've found out I only do this when I'm bored. I'll just start cutting for absolutely no reason. Other than just wanting to.

[Gamma Male]

I totally get where you're coming from. I cut a few times on my left leg and it's annoying the hell out of me. There are like 7 on my left leg and none on my right.


AAARRRRRRGGGHHH!!!!!!!!


I decided that putting lots of ointment on the cuts and trying to heal them as fast as possible would be better than making 7 new cuts though. I took the razor and lightly dragged it across my right leg 7 times, but didn't actually cut, and I feel kinda better about it now. Even with no scars it still feels more even.

[maddogmj77]

I totally get where you're coming from. I cut a few times on my left leg and it's annoying the hell out of me. There are like 7 on my left leg and none on my right.


AAARRRRRRGGGHHH!!!!!!!!


I decided that putting lots of ointment on the cuts and trying to heal them as fast as possible would be better than making 7 new cuts though. I took the razor and lightly dragged it across my right leg 7 times, but didn't actually cut, and I feel kinda better about it now. Even with no scars it still feels more even.

I do 90% of my cuts on my right leg. It annoys me that they're not even, but I find it harder to cut on my left leg. I have no idea why, it's not physically harder, I just.........dont know. :confused:

[Living For Love]

I'm a bit like that too. I don't cut on my legs, only on my left arm, but I want to, like, feel the cuts, and see the small drops of blood pouring out, and then, some hours later, when I'm feeling better, I want to see the scars there, it makes me feel a bit better just by looking at them. The problem is, sometimes I can't cut because I'm at school, or I'm busy with my parents, and I just feel the need to cut right on that moment, and I can't because of that, and it's really annoying and paranoid, because later I want to look at the scars and they are not there, and then my desire to cut faded away in the meanwhile, and I feel like crap.

[maddogmj77]

I'm a bit like that too. I don't cut on my legs, only on my left arm, but I want to, like, feel the cuts, and see the small drops of blood pouring out, and then, some hours later, when I'm feeling better, I want to see the scars there, it makes me feel a bit better just by looking at them. The problem is, sometimes I can't cut because I'm at school, or I'm busy with my parents, and I just feel the need to cut right on that moment, and I can't because of that, and it's really annoying and paranoid, because later I want to look at the scars and they are not there, and then my desire to cut faded away in the meanwhile, and I feel like crap.

Yeah, I've thought about bringing my blade to school, but I've never done it.

[thatgothgirluknow]

Yeah, I've thought about bringing my blade to school, but I've never done it.
i never go anywhere without them i take them to school everyday but its a realy bad idea someone found out once and i got sent to a crisis center and the cops where called i get what u mean about them though i cant stand for my arms to be cut free while im trying to stop cutting i need to be able to look down at my cuts and so when there not there it drives me nuts i sometimes go to the bathroom just to uncover them and stare at them i absultely wont cut anywhere besides my arms i just cant idk why it just seems weird to me

[maddogmj77]

My cuts are actually starting to fade, and its annoying the S*I* out of me! It feels nice to just stare at my cuts (just as Jordan said), I've literally done that for about 20 minutes straight before. I'm trying not to cut, but the more they fade, the more I need to. I don't think I'll be able to help myself when they disappear, but it'll probably happen before that.