benlodge123
April 3rd, 2019, 09:17 AM
Yna, my girlfriend. I love her a lot.
She talks about having kids with me, Is that normal since we have only been going out since November 31st 2018. i find it kinda cute ngl. But I have trust issues, she is friends with a lot of guys, Yes "FRIENDS" Its not that I feel like she will do stuff with them. I know she wont. But I feel like once she gets the freedom of passing her driving test, that gives her a "private" location with which, i wont be there and she could be roped into doing stuff with other guys. Ofc i want her to have freedom, i will too when i pass my driving test. But i am certainly not going to go round meeting girls etc, only her. She doesnt worry about that kidna stuff. I am the one with trust issues in the relationship and eventually she is going to blow and will have had enough of me worrying. I feel like if i stop worrying though, thats when something bad will happen e.g. she cheats on me etc. Normally, when i worry and i am with her in person, she talks to me, kisses me and hugs me. That makes me feel secure and not worry. But ofc, she has a life, has college and other friends, she cant always be around me, I dont know how to cope with the insecurity I have about her. I have no problem with her having friends, I have no problem with her dropping her guy friends home from college, (the one she said she would drop home already).
I really don't want to loose her, She is taking me to the Philippines in July, yes she is taking ME. Not her guy friends. I find it realyl difficult to think about these positives when i am worrying about her cheating. My past is to blame for that cheating worry, I was cheated on in my last relationship and it really really hurt me. Damn i am rambling on.
I dont want to worry anymore, I want to trust her, I want her to stay with me and yes, I do want to grow up with her :)
But how, I dont know how to stop worrying, I am an introvert (stay indoors) guy. When i do pass my driving test I am probably only going to do to Ynas house and college and thats it, I wont go out with friends. I might drop Yna off at college and pick her up, But i am not picking up her guy friend as well. He can get the bus ;)
She talks about having kids with me, Is that normal since we have only been going out since November 31st 2018. i find it kinda cute ngl. But I have trust issues, she is friends with a lot of guys, Yes "FRIENDS" Its not that I feel like she will do stuff with them. I know she wont. But I feel like once she gets the freedom of passing her driving test, that gives her a "private" location with which, i wont be there and she could be roped into doing stuff with other guys. Ofc i want her to have freedom, i will too when i pass my driving test. But i am certainly not going to go round meeting girls etc, only her. She doesnt worry about that kidna stuff. I am the one with trust issues in the relationship and eventually she is going to blow and will have had enough of me worrying. I feel like if i stop worrying though, thats when something bad will happen e.g. she cheats on me etc. Normally, when i worry and i am with her in person, she talks to me, kisses me and hugs me. That makes me feel secure and not worry. But ofc, she has a life, has college and other friends, she cant always be around me, I dont know how to cope with the insecurity I have about her. I have no problem with her having friends, I have no problem with her dropping her guy friends home from college, (the one she said she would drop home already).
I really don't want to loose her, She is taking me to the Philippines in July, yes she is taking ME. Not her guy friends. I find it realyl difficult to think about these positives when i am worrying about her cheating. My past is to blame for that cheating worry, I was cheated on in my last relationship and it really really hurt me. Damn i am rambling on.
I dont want to worry anymore, I want to trust her, I want her to stay with me and yes, I do want to grow up with her :)
But how, I dont know how to stop worrying, I am an introvert (stay indoors) guy. When i do pass my driving test I am probably only going to do to Ynas house and college and thats it, I wont go out with friends. I might drop Yna off at college and pick her up, But i am not picking up her guy friend as well. He can get the bus ;)