AnonymousHalf
November 3rd, 2018, 09:26 PM
Been a while since I’ve posted here, but recently I’ve been thinking about the girl I’ve talked about in my previous posts.
To sum up where we’re at right now, I feel like we’re definitely a lot more closer than we ever were before. I’ve hung out with her numerous times in the past month outside of school. At school I’ve started hanging out with her during breaks too, and it makes me really happy to spend time with her.
I’ve been thinking about the future and what will happen next. Right now I am currently in my senior year, so college is a big thing I’m thinking about, but also I’m thinking about her. It probably seems stupid and silly of me to say this since I’m still in high school, but I feel like she’s someone special. I legitimately could see myself spending my life with her by my side. And the future and world after high school scares me regarding this. She’s not sure where she wants to go next. She might go somewhere out of state, I may not see her for a while, if ever. Now, she might not too. She might stay in state and the most I’ll have to do is drive around to see her and spend time with her, but the concern is still there.
As of right now, I still don’t know if she knows how I feel about her. I would think that it’s obvious what my feelings are for her, and I feel like if she knew and wasn’t interested she would’ve brushed me off a while ago. I’m nervous to tell her how I feel, and I know I’ll tell her eventually, but....I don’t know.
I just really don’t want her to go away, I want her to stay a part of my life. Seeing her smile, spending time with her, it makes me so happy, and it makes me sad thinking there might be a possibility I won’t see that again. I want her to do what makes her happy first and foremost, and if that means going out of state, then of course she should do it.
After typing all of this out, I’m actually not sure what the point of time posting this was. I just wanted a place to let this out anonymously. Thanks for your time
To sum up where we’re at right now, I feel like we’re definitely a lot more closer than we ever were before. I’ve hung out with her numerous times in the past month outside of school. At school I’ve started hanging out with her during breaks too, and it makes me really happy to spend time with her.
I’ve been thinking about the future and what will happen next. Right now I am currently in my senior year, so college is a big thing I’m thinking about, but also I’m thinking about her. It probably seems stupid and silly of me to say this since I’m still in high school, but I feel like she’s someone special. I legitimately could see myself spending my life with her by my side. And the future and world after high school scares me regarding this. She’s not sure where she wants to go next. She might go somewhere out of state, I may not see her for a while, if ever. Now, she might not too. She might stay in state and the most I’ll have to do is drive around to see her and spend time with her, but the concern is still there.
As of right now, I still don’t know if she knows how I feel about her. I would think that it’s obvious what my feelings are for her, and I feel like if she knew and wasn’t interested she would’ve brushed me off a while ago. I’m nervous to tell her how I feel, and I know I’ll tell her eventually, but....I don’t know.
I just really don’t want her to go away, I want her to stay a part of my life. Seeing her smile, spending time with her, it makes me so happy, and it makes me sad thinking there might be a possibility I won’t see that again. I want her to do what makes her happy first and foremost, and if that means going out of state, then of course she should do it.
After typing all of this out, I’m actually not sure what the point of time posting this was. I just wanted a place to let this out anonymously. Thanks for your time