centreoftheuniverse
September 9th, 2018, 02:09 PM
so, i'm currently in my third year of secondary school. at the end of primary,a good friend and i went to different secondary schools. we assured each other we'd stay in touch. in first year of secondary it was alright - we saw each other occasionally, and stayed in touch digitally. but then second year rolled around. it was mostly work on my part - i tried to meet up with her a couple of times, but she always found an excuse - mother cancelled me coming over at the last minute, she was going away this weekend, she couldn't hang out this thursday, etc. etc.
this past summer i came clean and just messaged her to straight out ask whether she wanted to stay friends because from what i'd been understanding via a mutual friend, she clearly thought i was too immature/young (i'm a year younger than everyone in my year, and a bit different i.e. hippy, not afraid to do, say or wear anything which tends to come off as odd to my classmates). she messaged back gushing that of course she wanted to stay friends, no she didn't think i was childish, blah di blah.
oh, she also seems to have made an entire village of new friends in her new schools (she moved secondary schools because of "crap"). yet i'm still here - and as you may have guessed, i'm not exactly miss popular with my one or two close friends. i mean, i get on with everyone, but compared to her i look completely antisocial.
and she always seems to be the most important one in everything - brilliant at maths (i'm awful), gets all the cool friends, and in fact a few hours ago messaged me saying she asked some guy out and he said yes. (we're both 14, so this is a big thing) i think that was the last straw - i was afraid if this. something big was going to happen, i wasn't going to be there, i'd be the last one to know and the world would keep spinning never mind what her sad lame weird friend from years ago was doing.
i tried to meet up in town as well this year, but she made up some shitty excuse about how she has to stay with her mum (her mum works at a thing and so my friend usually stays at the location). but i know it's bullshit - she's constantly hanging around town with those new friends.
ha! there's another thing: i made a friend in secondary school, and then my old friend met her. suddenly they were best buddies - sleepovers, shopping, cinema, discos, etc. etc. and i know they discuss me - the mutual friend was saying how my old friend showed the new friends pictures of me from primary, and they were laughing about my hairclips and shit. yes, i fucking wore hairclips because they kept my hair out of the way. anyway, they were making fun of that and i suspect more, but i have no evidence.
the mutual and old friend also do loads together, like i said. i do feel pretty left out - the one time the mutual friend asked me if i wanted to go to a disco, she opened my message asking where it is, never replied (i.e. i couldn't go) and then when i called her out, she just mumbled crap. i left it at that, not wanting to escalate into a fight.
my questions is: i feel like i'm being treated as though i'm something this friend (maybe even friends) has grown out of. should i just do a full rant and blow up at her, or wait and see what happens? someone please give advice- this is going on for too long.
p.s. sorry if i sound like a lame old grumpy man; i can't really talk to anyone on this, and i really needed to vent.
this past summer i came clean and just messaged her to straight out ask whether she wanted to stay friends because from what i'd been understanding via a mutual friend, she clearly thought i was too immature/young (i'm a year younger than everyone in my year, and a bit different i.e. hippy, not afraid to do, say or wear anything which tends to come off as odd to my classmates). she messaged back gushing that of course she wanted to stay friends, no she didn't think i was childish, blah di blah.
oh, she also seems to have made an entire village of new friends in her new schools (she moved secondary schools because of "crap"). yet i'm still here - and as you may have guessed, i'm not exactly miss popular with my one or two close friends. i mean, i get on with everyone, but compared to her i look completely antisocial.
and she always seems to be the most important one in everything - brilliant at maths (i'm awful), gets all the cool friends, and in fact a few hours ago messaged me saying she asked some guy out and he said yes. (we're both 14, so this is a big thing) i think that was the last straw - i was afraid if this. something big was going to happen, i wasn't going to be there, i'd be the last one to know and the world would keep spinning never mind what her sad lame weird friend from years ago was doing.
i tried to meet up in town as well this year, but she made up some shitty excuse about how she has to stay with her mum (her mum works at a thing and so my friend usually stays at the location). but i know it's bullshit - she's constantly hanging around town with those new friends.
ha! there's another thing: i made a friend in secondary school, and then my old friend met her. suddenly they were best buddies - sleepovers, shopping, cinema, discos, etc. etc. and i know they discuss me - the mutual friend was saying how my old friend showed the new friends pictures of me from primary, and they were laughing about my hairclips and shit. yes, i fucking wore hairclips because they kept my hair out of the way. anyway, they were making fun of that and i suspect more, but i have no evidence.
the mutual and old friend also do loads together, like i said. i do feel pretty left out - the one time the mutual friend asked me if i wanted to go to a disco, she opened my message asking where it is, never replied (i.e. i couldn't go) and then when i called her out, she just mumbled crap. i left it at that, not wanting to escalate into a fight.
my questions is: i feel like i'm being treated as though i'm something this friend (maybe even friends) has grown out of. should i just do a full rant and blow up at her, or wait and see what happens? someone please give advice- this is going on for too long.
p.s. sorry if i sound like a lame old grumpy man; i can't really talk to anyone on this, and i really needed to vent.