xMissMurderx
March 13th, 2014, 08:28 PM
I don't even know how to start...
Um, well my older sister committed suicide a couple years ago, and each year that goes by I feel worse and worse about it.
Know one really knows why she did it, or if they do they aren't sharing it with me. I feel like she was so much better than me and if she could do that to herself then why do I keep going. I have my own depression issues but this one seems to loom over me all the time and make everything else worse.
I tries once about a year ago to talk to my parents about it but they said I was just looking for attention and that I was going about it inappropriately. I don't feel like I'm doing that, but it made me feel guilty anyway.
Anyway... I just don't know how to cope with any of this, it seems like it just gets worse all the time and never gets any better. My parents packed all her stuff up and put it in the attic and I've looked through it hoping to find some answer but there just isn't any reason that makes any sense.
I don't even know if any of this makes any sense, I probably just sound like I'm whining and feeling sorry for myself, so I apologize if that's all this is.
Um, well my older sister committed suicide a couple years ago, and each year that goes by I feel worse and worse about it.
Know one really knows why she did it, or if they do they aren't sharing it with me. I feel like she was so much better than me and if she could do that to herself then why do I keep going. I have my own depression issues but this one seems to loom over me all the time and make everything else worse.
I tries once about a year ago to talk to my parents about it but they said I was just looking for attention and that I was going about it inappropriately. I don't feel like I'm doing that, but it made me feel guilty anyway.
Anyway... I just don't know how to cope with any of this, it seems like it just gets worse all the time and never gets any better. My parents packed all her stuff up and put it in the attic and I've looked through it hoping to find some answer but there just isn't any reason that makes any sense.
I don't even know if any of this makes any sense, I probably just sound like I'm whining and feeling sorry for myself, so I apologize if that's all this is.