Can't get over a guy I dated. A gay guys predicament

[tatertot2035]

7th grade year was a big year of self discovery. I learned that I was gay. That my best friend was gay and liked me a lot. Like a lot a lot. So we tried it out for a little bit. In the end it lasted about 2 months before I cut the wire. I spent about a month before we decided to start dating trying to figure myself out. All the while this guy was waiting for me to be ready to date. But once we started it felt like he was trying to make up for lost time. He was 2 years older than me. He was willing to have sex. While I was not. So I cut it off via text on a friend's phone. Now 2 years later I feel bad about what I did and how I did it. I know it devastated him. And I don't like to hurt people. So I don't know what to do. It's not like I can find someone else to date. There are like 5 guys in my school that are gay. They all probably know I am considering that my old friend from earlier has dated nearly all of them. But keep in mind I'm still in the closet, only my closest friends know. Anyway, I just wanted some other opinions if at all possible.
Sincerely,
Lonely gay

[Zachary G]

Well, if you feel bad about how you ended it with the second guy, then I think in order for you to move on, you should talk to him and apologize for the way you broke up with him, and explain why you broke up with him. Once you do that, it might be easier for you to move on and get on with the rest of your self discovery and quest for a partner.

[mick01]

I think the same way as Zachary. You should apologize to the person and admit you mis-handled the situation. At the same time, you should be a little easier on yourself. It was all new to you and you were pretty young. So forgive yourself too.

[ShineintheDark]

Just talk it out man, us queers love talking about our feelings. The best thing you can do is just have a frank discussion about what happened, why and how you both felt. Hopefully then you'll feel more ready to move on to other things, whether it's him or another guy syou'd have genune closure with nothing to regret.