centreoftheuniverse
July 14th, 2018, 02:51 PM
i met a boy at summer camp earlier this week (camp was only four nights). he's a little younger and shorter than me, and i thought he was kind of cute. we got along fine - the usual banter and laughter. for the last couple nights of the camp i debated whether to make a move because i was starting to like him, but in the end i was too shy.
it was only as i watched him walk out the camp driveway and out of sight yesterday that i realized i was a huge idiot for not doing anything. i can't get him out of my head and i confess to shedding some tears (although i'm menstruating, so that's probably not helping).
the problem is that he lives over an hour and a half away from me, so there's zero chance of running into him. and there's no reason for either myself or my family to ever be in his area, so i can't even meet him once. he said he'd probably back at the camp next summer, and i probably will be too - only that's a year away, and i need to see him now.
i messaged him on snapchat earlier today, and told him that i liked him (only in a longer message, with some memories from camp and saying that i was telling him for my own closure, and that i wasn't too worried if he liked me or not, which i amen't). he replied with:
Ah sure we might meet at camp next year
Thanks same
i genuinely am not worried whether he likes me or not, although i'm still a little confused as to whether he actually does.
[it was camp gossip he liked another girl after kissing her in spin the bottle (i didn't play), only when i teased him for it, he replied with "it could have been you." i just sort of laughed it off a bit, but i'm still wondering what could have happened if i had participated, and whether his reply implied that he would've liked to kiss me.]
what's hurting worst is that i won't see him for twelve months - if that. the camp we went to has two operating dates, so if we're at it at different times next summer, it means we won't see each other, resulting in TWO YEARS of not seeing him.
on the other hand, there are also two other boys at my school who i'll be seeing again in august. i really liked one (i don't think he's into me), and the other i wasn't too sure about (but we kind of get on ok).
only this boy from camp - i know i could have a chance with him if i could just see him again. and when i think of the boy from camp compared with the boys from school, i can't comprehend getting with one of them.
{just an FYI also: the boy from camp is nine months younger than me, and the boys from school are a year older, so they're more of my maturity level}
someone please help and give me advice on what to do. i'm literally crying and my heart feels like it's being torn from my chest.
it was only as i watched him walk out the camp driveway and out of sight yesterday that i realized i was a huge idiot for not doing anything. i can't get him out of my head and i confess to shedding some tears (although i'm menstruating, so that's probably not helping).
the problem is that he lives over an hour and a half away from me, so there's zero chance of running into him. and there's no reason for either myself or my family to ever be in his area, so i can't even meet him once. he said he'd probably back at the camp next summer, and i probably will be too - only that's a year away, and i need to see him now.
i messaged him on snapchat earlier today, and told him that i liked him (only in a longer message, with some memories from camp and saying that i was telling him for my own closure, and that i wasn't too worried if he liked me or not, which i amen't). he replied with:
Ah sure we might meet at camp next year
Thanks same
i genuinely am not worried whether he likes me or not, although i'm still a little confused as to whether he actually does.
[it was camp gossip he liked another girl after kissing her in spin the bottle (i didn't play), only when i teased him for it, he replied with "it could have been you." i just sort of laughed it off a bit, but i'm still wondering what could have happened if i had participated, and whether his reply implied that he would've liked to kiss me.]
what's hurting worst is that i won't see him for twelve months - if that. the camp we went to has two operating dates, so if we're at it at different times next summer, it means we won't see each other, resulting in TWO YEARS of not seeing him.
on the other hand, there are also two other boys at my school who i'll be seeing again in august. i really liked one (i don't think he's into me), and the other i wasn't too sure about (but we kind of get on ok).
only this boy from camp - i know i could have a chance with him if i could just see him again. and when i think of the boy from camp compared with the boys from school, i can't comprehend getting with one of them.
{just an FYI also: the boy from camp is nine months younger than me, and the boys from school are a year older, so they're more of my maturity level}
someone please help and give me advice on what to do. i'm literally crying and my heart feels like it's being torn from my chest.