Dontworryaboutit
July 8th, 2018, 12:57 AM
Ok this is my final post in a trilogy of posts about this one girl, J. To recap, I fell in love with J all year, told her how i felt even though she had a boyfriend. She felt the same, the guy found out and dumped her; I waited too long to ask her out and she got back with him. I’ve moved on, and have essentially entered started flirting with this other girl, it’s getting a little serious, we went to see a movie the other day. J saw a video of us on my snap of us playing the piano, and proceeded to get jealous and tried to flirt with me a little. I am so done at this point. I still have feelings for her, but she’s not worth it at this point. The problem is, I kind of like seeing her jealous (I know how fucked up that is, I’m very aware). But what’s worse is I’m actually starting to fall for this other girl, and I really like being with her. To tell you the truth, i think the whole thing is just unhealthy. Also, I’m leaving for london in a day, and will probably meet girls there, and honestly, I just made this just to have some sense talked into me. So please yell at me, and tell me what a terrible person I am. In the past two months, I have broken up a relationship, dragged my friends into a fight with a whole group of people, ruined my chance at happiness, and have finally moved on, only to realize I’m scared of getting hurt by this other girl, and I’m starting to put up walls. I know, these posts are annoying as shit, and I’m sorry, but someone please talk some sense into me. My friends won’t do it, because they know I have some intense family stuff going on.