benlodge123
June 26th, 2018, 02:18 PM
This is going to be a really long post so bare with me on my grammar errors :/
I am friends with a girl called Megan. I have known her for about a month. We speak all the time, and sometimes the convos are great. However it seems to be me always asking her the questions. She complains she knows nothing about me, but isnt prepared to ask to find out stuff.
She is part of the whole Friends With Benefits thing. I see this as a huge problem because i really want to be in a relationship with her. So when she goes out in the evening to see her "friends" she always comes home talking about how she had sex etc. I just have to go along with it but deep down, it really really hurts me. I can't decipher knowing that she is out there fucking some other guy. It gets to me. I have told her I like her, but she says "Im not ready to love anyone at the moment" This was 2 weeks ago.
Today she puts on her story that she is sad. I pop up to her because I want to make sure she is okay as thats what friends do. She then says this "I have been talking to my best mates ex..." her best friend is called Milly. Millys ex is called Bradley. The messsage she sent me when i asked what was wrong is as follows: "ive been talking to my best mates ex, my best mate; milly found out. She was not impressed with me". Firstly, im crushed once again by her getting close with another boy when she says she is not ready to love anyone. I reply saying "well its good that you have a best friend. And its also good they you are friends with millys ex as you could help with their situation. However its not so good that you are getting close with him and i can see her problem with that".
I suppose the question you are asking now as you read this is Why am i attracted to her. Well, me and her have argued a few times and we always come running back to each other. We have good chats (sometimes) and we have sexted a few times.
I am not a friends with benefits type of person, id rather have a girlfriend who i can have to myself and not have to "share" with other boys. There is also a risk of getting STD's which i spoke to her about, she then twisted it and said I called her a slag, and after 30 mins we was talking like normal again.
What im getting at is is Megan worth my time and effort. Or is she in that "fuckgirl" stage forever. She's really crushing me down and when i tell her she says im over reacting. I am supposed to be meeting her for the first time ever this sunday, but i dont wann become attached to her even more than what i am already.
I am friends with a girl called Megan. I have known her for about a month. We speak all the time, and sometimes the convos are great. However it seems to be me always asking her the questions. She complains she knows nothing about me, but isnt prepared to ask to find out stuff.
She is part of the whole Friends With Benefits thing. I see this as a huge problem because i really want to be in a relationship with her. So when she goes out in the evening to see her "friends" she always comes home talking about how she had sex etc. I just have to go along with it but deep down, it really really hurts me. I can't decipher knowing that she is out there fucking some other guy. It gets to me. I have told her I like her, but she says "Im not ready to love anyone at the moment" This was 2 weeks ago.
Today she puts on her story that she is sad. I pop up to her because I want to make sure she is okay as thats what friends do. She then says this "I have been talking to my best mates ex..." her best friend is called Milly. Millys ex is called Bradley. The messsage she sent me when i asked what was wrong is as follows: "ive been talking to my best mates ex, my best mate; milly found out. She was not impressed with me". Firstly, im crushed once again by her getting close with another boy when she says she is not ready to love anyone. I reply saying "well its good that you have a best friend. And its also good they you are friends with millys ex as you could help with their situation. However its not so good that you are getting close with him and i can see her problem with that".
I suppose the question you are asking now as you read this is Why am i attracted to her. Well, me and her have argued a few times and we always come running back to each other. We have good chats (sometimes) and we have sexted a few times.
I am not a friends with benefits type of person, id rather have a girlfriend who i can have to myself and not have to "share" with other boys. There is also a risk of getting STD's which i spoke to her about, she then twisted it and said I called her a slag, and after 30 mins we was talking like normal again.
What im getting at is is Megan worth my time and effort. Or is she in that "fuckgirl" stage forever. She's really crushing me down and when i tell her she says im over reacting. I am supposed to be meeting her for the first time ever this sunday, but i dont wann become attached to her even more than what i am already.