Dontworryaboutit
May 18th, 2018, 10:51 PM
Ok, so. There’s this girl. (Isn’t there always). Um, I don’t really know how to do this, I don’t really post things online that much, I’m kind of private. I’ll just get into it I guess
. So, we first met in September, when we sat next to each other in Biology class. Then the next day, we found out we were in the same law class. Over time, we kind of became really good friends, just based on how much we hate those two classes. And we have a ton of inside jokes. I was actually going to ask her to homecoming in October, but my friend Hudson beat me to it. But they never ended up dating. And so she was single, and I was trying to work up the courage. And then I found out she was dating this guy Teddy, and I respectfully backed off.
And so while I was waiting for that to end, I started dating this girl Victoria, who was really sexy, but that’s kind of all we did, you know. Just sexy stuff. She was in love with me, but I kind of realize I didn’t have any real feelings for her, mainly because I still has a huge crush on this girl. So I broke up with her, right after she dumped teddy. But I gave the girl some time to get over it, and also gave myself some time, because I like to think of myself as a good person, even though I’m probavly not, and I had a lot of guilt about breaking up with Victoria, cause she was going through a lot. And after that, I kind of became a fuckboy for a while. Just a ton of different girls. And I got in fights with my friends about it. But now I feel like I’m doing better. Like I’m a better person. I try to be nice to everyone, and I genuinely care about other people. That’s besides the point.
So, she started dating this guy Ethan about last month. Ethan is a dick. There’s no other way around it. I’m probably biased here, but he will date a girl, just to have sex with her, and then dump her. I kind of try to give girls space with sex, cause I know some can get uncomfortable about it, and I just wait til their ready. But, anyways, he’s not a good guy. Their going to prom together tomorrow night, and it’s killing me. It’s absolutely killing me. I just found out he’s going to dump her after prom, and I feel bad for her, but I also have a shot.
I’ll be honest. I think I’m in love. I’m a guy that can’t really talk about my feelings. I hate that shit. Most of my breakups have been because I can’t open up about how I feel, or tell people I care. But here’s how I know I’m in love. I have had feelings for this girl for about 9 months. My longest relationship is 6. I have never had feelings for anyone for this long. I just told someone about it last week. Usually I’ll tell my friends right away, but I really didn’t want to fuck this up. I like everything about her, and it’s really weird. I’m not used to it. Like, I like her smile, and her eyes, and this way she looks at me whenever somebody says something funny. And her voice, even when it gets awkward and kind of high pitched. And the way she calls everyone dude. This patriots jacket she wears sometimes, or this Harvard sweatshirt. It’s really fucking weird that I know all of this, but still. I like these glasses she wears sometimes, and she’s really self conscious about them, but I think their cute. I like how we talk at three in the morning, and how the best part of my day is when I get to see her in class. I like how we both love the Office, and how we shared earbuds to watch Netflix.
We’re both in this acting class now. And I did this scene from the office, where Jim tells Dwight how he has to go for it with Angela, and what he knows about love. And every time I say it, I think of her. Cause when I do, I’m not acting, I mean it. I have this friend Colin, who also has a crush on a girl in the class who also has a boyfriend. and if this works out, we could double date.
So I guess my main reason for making this post, is I just wanted someone to hear the story. The whole story I guess. Honestly, I just want her to be happy, and if that means waiting for a really long time, I’ll have to do that then. But it’s killing me.
Also, sorry this is so long and wordy, but thanks for reading it.
Posts merged ~ Dalcourt
. So, we first met in September, when we sat next to each other in Biology class. Then the next day, we found out we were in the same law class. Over time, we kind of became really good friends, just based on how much we hate those two classes. And we have a ton of inside jokes. I was actually going to ask her to homecoming in October, but my friend Hudson beat me to it. But they never ended up dating. And so she was single, and I was trying to work up the courage. And then I found out she was dating this guy Teddy, and I respectfully backed off.
And so while I was waiting for that to end, I started dating this girl Victoria, who was really sexy, but that’s kind of all we did, you know. Just sexy stuff. She was in love with me, but I kind of realize I didn’t have any real feelings for her, mainly because I still has a huge crush on this girl. So I broke up with her, right after she dumped teddy. But I gave the girl some time to get over it, and also gave myself some time, because I like to think of myself as a good person, even though I’m probavly not, and I had a lot of guilt about breaking up with Victoria, cause she was going through a lot. And after that, I kind of became a fuckboy for a while. Just a ton of different girls. And I got in fights with my friends about it. But now I feel like I’m doing better. Like I’m a better person. I try to be nice to everyone, and I genuinely care about other people. That’s besides the point.
So, she started dating this guy Ethan about last month. Ethan is a dick. There’s no other way around it. I’m probably biased here, but he will date a girl, just to have sex with her, and then dump her. I kind of try to give girls space with sex, cause I know some can get uncomfortable about it, and I just wait til their ready. But, anyways, he’s not a good guy. Their going to prom together tomorrow night, and it’s killing me. It’s absolutely killing me. I just found out he’s going to dump her after prom, and I feel bad for her, but I also have a shot.
I’ll be honest. I think I’m in love. I’m a guy that can’t really talk about my feelings. I hate that shit. Most of my breakups have been because I can’t open up about how I feel, or tell people I care. But here’s how I know I’m in love. I have had feelings for this girl for about 9 months. My longest relationship is 6. I have never had feelings for anyone for this long. I just told someone about it last week. Usually I’ll tell my friends right away, but I really didn’t want to fuck this up. I like everything about her, and it’s really weird. I’m not used to it. Like, I like her smile, and her eyes, and this way she looks at me whenever somebody says something funny. And her voice, even when it gets awkward and kind of high pitched. And the way she calls everyone dude. This patriots jacket she wears sometimes, or this Harvard sweatshirt. It’s really fucking weird that I know all of this, but still. I like these glasses she wears sometimes, and she’s really self conscious about them, but I think their cute. I like how we talk at three in the morning, and how the best part of my day is when I get to see her in class. I like how we both love the Office, and how we shared earbuds to watch Netflix.
We’re both in this acting class now. And I did this scene from the office, where Jim tells Dwight how he has to go for it with Angela, and what he knows about love. And every time I say it, I think of her. Cause when I do, I’m not acting, I mean it. I have this friend Colin, who also has a crush on a girl in the class who also has a boyfriend. and if this works out, we could double date.
So I guess my main reason for making this post, is I just wanted someone to hear the story. The whole story I guess. Honestly, I just want her to be happy, and if that means waiting for a really long time, I’ll have to do that then. But it’s killing me.
Also, sorry this is so long and wordy, but thanks for reading it.
Posts merged ~ Dalcourt